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Continuing 12th step...
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Aloha Family...I took and followed thru on a "community" 12step this morning with the local Liquor Commission. They are not aware of any class of person I am including recovering alcoholic or member of any recovering group. I do it because of all of the experiences and awareness I have b...
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Ridin'the WindS
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Howdy, Glad to hear Aquaman lived to share again. I get to ride the emotional turmoil winds once again. Never is fun. The good news is that a bit of sober time helps cause I can remember I made it through the last storm clean and sober. Very Grateful the program is stronger and wiser than my storms. ...
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Toad
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Day 1...again.
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Building resentment and anger. After all that hooey about a sober fishing trip I bought three singles at the bait shop. This wasn't an accident. It took several muscle-groups and a conscious decision to open that cooler door. I didn't want to call anyone on my phone list, I didn't want to call my spon...
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Aquaman
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Telling my story at inpatient rehab
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In 2 days I will tell my story at an inpatient rehab. I have always be told that I am not to say "No" to service and it is a privilege to be asked to tell my story. I do believe it is a privilege. Nonetheless, I am a bit scared because of 2 main recurrent fear based thoughts. 1. The last time I went...
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pinkchip
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God Damn It.
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(Opening words chosen very carefully.) Ok, so I've been sober 8 1/2 months now. I'm working with a sponsor who has been sober 10 years. I was raised Catholic but no longer consider myself to be one - the thought of organized religion still fills me with revulsion and particularly the use of the phrase...
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New to the forum
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Hello everybody, I am a 28 year old male from England and have seriously struggled with alcohol since my early 20's, however since I was made redundant in August things have taken the turn for the worst and have started drinking every day usually into oblivion. Today however I have had enough of this...
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aarona
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Sponsee stuff again
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I posted a few weeks ago about a new-ish sponsee I have who is dragging her feet about doing any work. Im starting to think she asked me to be her sponsor so she could satisfy her rehab counsellor. Ive pretty much had it with the drama phone calls, and her unwillingness to take suggestions. I want to.........
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soberjulie
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Back in the saddle again!
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Batman Begins - Bruce Wayne's Dad (or Alfred, I can't recall) "Why do we fall down, Bruce? So we can learn how to get back up again." I'm better for the experience. Didn't spiral. Now I know - gotta work that program hard without fail. No lapses. No renting any headspace to anger. God will step...
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Aquaman
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Just for today
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Howdy, Just for today I need to let go and let God. Hold on to the program and allow life to unfold. This to shall pass. Toad
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Daily Reflections ~ Focusing & Listening + 24hrs a Day
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There is a direct linkage among self-examination, meditation, and prayer. Taken separately, these practices can bring much relief and benefit. TWELVE STEPS AND TWELVE TRADITIONS, p. 98 If I do my self-examination first, then surely, I'll have enough humility to pray and meditate - because I'll s...
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Sobrietyspell
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Really new and have lots of frustration and questions
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Well, I will start by saying that I am a hopeless alcoholic. I can't tell you all how much I have appreciated reading your HOPEFUL posts. It can be done, can't it? I don't understand how I wake up bound and determined to get through the day living in God's will, then end up with a bottle in my hand. I hav...
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Can I hold onto a lie until a suitable time?
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Hear me out...Ive been sober for 5 days. Ive been speaking with my sponsor over the last week. He finally has time to meet with me tomorrow evening to read some BB and talk. This is what I want, to start the program over again. Thing is, I've been through some relapses with him and have false-started sever...
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Dodsworth
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Good Morning.
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Hope this note finds you reasonably well. Talked with a fellow trudgger last night. He will celebrate 29 Years this coming Saturday. We spoke of reasonableness. Not the giant of our dreams nor the dwarf of our fears. Simply a part of the whole. As I read some new posts I felt the pain of early recover...
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so this may be a touchy one... but..
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I appreciate all the feed back from the first post i made, went better than i had really expected it to, but I feel i need to point out something about my self and see what anyone might think.. I noticed alot of people have turned to god to help them through addiction.. well I am a firm believer that there is n...
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RagnarokNO09
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Crappy Halloween
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WARNING - NOT a flowers and butterflies share. Last night while the rest of the family went to an annual Halloween pot-luck & family social that I always LOVE going to. There's a poetry slam & I'm the reighning champion. Until last night. Wife & I had a wee tiff and my headspace was in the neg...
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Aquaman
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Daily Reflections ~ Keeping Optimism Afloat & 24hrs a Day
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The other Steps can keep most of us sober and somehow functioning. But Step Eleven can keep us growing. . . . THE LANGUAGE OF THE HEART, p. 240 A sober alcoholic finds it much easier to be optimistic about life. Optimism is the natural result of my finding myself gradually able to make the best, rather tha...
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"In all our affairs"
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....."tried to practice these principals in all our affairs" Wooooohoooooo........thats a toughie today! People drive me crazy you know! The committee of idiots that lives in my head gets very judgemental about others. I caught myself thinking of others as "stupid" and &q...
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Grateful
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Hi, Just suiting up and showing up today. Still figgering out the in's and out's of the site. Pleasantly surprised to find very good sobriety. Humorusly mosty better than my own. That is very good . No A.A. Poster Child here. ...
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Happy Halloween with caution guys
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Happy Halloween everyone. Just wanted to say I hope everyone has a safe and sober, but awesome time. Halloween is one of the hardest nights to be sober (next to new years eve probably the biggest challenge). I just wanted to write a quick post to newcomers and others close to my time in this program. ...
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pinkchip
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Feeling Feelings
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I was six years clean and sober when I realized I could feel happy and sad at the same time. For this alky that was almost to much to stand. The long beginning of letting go of my need to control to feel safe. I am still some-what broken, so when I say I am sober by the Grace of God and my willingness to work the s...
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Daily Reflections ~ I Cannot Change The Wind
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It is easy to let up on the spiritual program of action and rest on our laurels. We are headed for trouble if we do, for alcohol is a subtle foe. ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS, p. 85 My first sponsor told me there were two things to say about prayer and meditation: first, I had to start and second, I had to continue. W...
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Once More
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Read this a bit of time ago. "The alcoholic at certain times has no effective mental defense against the first drink. Except in a few rare cases, neither he nor any other human being can provide such a defense.His defense must come from a Higher Power." Blue Book p. 43. ...
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Toad
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The Gift
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Mornin' Might be a good day to be clean and sober. Think I will ask for that gift. Puttin' along, Toad
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Toad
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Question on traditions
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Some meetings in my area are able to run 'free' ads in the local newspaper to let the public know about meetings. Some ppl leave a contact : first name and last initial with a phone # for their groups meeting. Is this violation of tradition 7 and possibly 11 ?
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sober fishing
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Yesterday I decided to give myself a break from job-hunting and get out into the great outdoors. Actually, Mother Nature decided for me. It was such a beautiful day, she demanded that I get out and and enjoy her! I live in the Smoky Mountains, so I went trout fishing. I had some trepidations. Even "...
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Just rambling about... karma, love, and Higher Powers
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Sometimes, just by rambling I can clear up the confusion in my own mind. So where this goes I really don't know. I'll let my Higher Power guide me. First, let me introduce you to my Higher Power. Her name is Love. And for me it is the essence of unconditional Love. This Love can be found in many different rel...
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Dave Harm
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The Trickledown Theory of Unconditional Love
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God loves me, this I know. He loves me unconditionally. Therefore: His love for me is based on who HE is. Therefore: I have not earned His love, nor can I earn His love. Therefore: I cannot be separated from His love.When I obey Him, He will bless me.When I disobey Him, there will be consequences for m...
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The Trickledown Theory of Conditional Love
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God loves me, but .. He loves me conditionally. Therefore His love is based on my performance. Therefore I have to earn His love by pleasing Him. Therefore, When I please Him, I feel loved. When I don't please Him, I feel rejected. Therefore, if God who is "all-loving" does not always love, a...
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Prayers if you have the time...
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Hey All, I am starting the annual event at my job that causes me immense amounts of stress. It has been my excuse to drink and slip in the past, and it was where I found MIP 2 years ago. If you have a spare moment, if you can send a prayer my way to give me the strength, clarity, confidence and motivation I wil...
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turninggrey
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Pain and Insomia.. HELP!!!
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Hi All, For the last week, have been dealing with a lot of strain, more that pain in my neck area from an old injury, and what is really the bigger problem is the insomia that has started coming with it. The treatments of cortizone shots were discontinued from an allergic reation I had to the med. that was m...
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Just Toni
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Day 118
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One Day At A Time. Somedays I feel God is right there riding shotgun with me and we just can't lose! Other days, like today, I feel that God is high-tide washing away my sand-castles. How arrogant! From 9am to my noon meeting I was drowning in resentment, anger and self-loathing. I wanted a drink so bad...
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Aquaman
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Defects of character
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Good morning all. Im just feeling a need to acknowledge some of my defects out loud, seeing them in print. Ive been struggling the last couple of days and they are popping out all over the place. Arrogance! Oh I hate this one. I mean I REALLY hate that I walk around feeling superior to others. Doesnt make m...
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soberjulie
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Finding it tough
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Dear all, Finding things tough at the moment, have kind of got over busy again, am making meetings as much as I can, and I love the meetings, no matter where I get them, I always get something from them. Am just feeling overwhelmed and ratty, constantly ratty, over nothing, though I am very aware of it and...
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Daily Reflections - Live & Let Live + 24hrs a Day
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Never since it began has Alcoholics Anonymous been divided by a major controversial issue. Nor has our Fellowship ever publicly taken sides on any question in an embattled world. This, however, has been no earned virtue. It could almost be said that we were born with it. . . . "So long as we don't a...
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Hi all!
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Hello, everybody! I'm jasperkent and I'm an alcoholic, among other things. I'm recently back from an extended relapse which included two lost jobs, three car wrecks, and severe multi-substance withdrawal/DT's in jail. I'm still unemployed, in debt, facing home foreclosure, and I have a s...
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jasperkent
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hate everything..
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so i feel like imm quitting for someone else rather than for me.. is it really a sin to enjoy a beer? just because of a few incidents with alcohol going to far, my wife threatens to leave me if i drink again, so i have to quit.. i come here thinking thats what she wants and feel like i have exagereted the truth....
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RagnarokNO09
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defects---- Friend or Foe ??
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Mornin' Paradox ----- I want to be broken to tenderness, till the argument is finally gone. I want to FEEL the Love of ACCEPTANCE. Don't care if it takes all life long. Thank You Julie for your honesty. Feeling Tender, To...
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Toad
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Daily Reflections - Global Sharing & 24hrs a Day
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The only thing that matters is that he is an alcoholic who has found a key to sobriety. These legacies of suffering and of recovery are easily passed among alcoholics, one to the other. This is our gift from God, and its bestowal upon others like us is the one aim that today animates A.A.'s all around the g...
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STICKY??
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I often see these 'sticky' topics, and mean to ask about them, but have just been reminded about it, What are 'Sticky' topics?? I am used to using these sites, but certainly NOT from a technical angle. My first train of thought was that they might be posts which some members might take offence at or mayb...
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Update
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Hi Y'all:Just a quick update on my AA/OA/AN & GA ladies w/e retreat; I found a sponsor (an old drinking friend of mine who has been sober and working the program for 32 years); that was providential.. yayyy for me. She's tough but she'll keep me on track. Thanks to you all for encouragement and sup...
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Carlotta
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Fourth Dimension
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Mornin' Thank You for the warm welcome. When I took that first drink I FELL IN LOVE. I FELT WHOLE. I FELT GOOD. I did not know booze was numbing the subconscious self dislike I had for myself. It took a srong bit for booze to show it's true Face. A Cover up. I needed to be ROCKETED INTO THE FOURTH DEMINS...
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Toad
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Just saying hello!
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Hi, Im susie and i'm a recovering alcoholic. I have been on this journey since Jan. 29 2008. I received my second DUI and was driving in a blackout. Spent 4 days in jail, 90 on tether, and was court ordered to sobriety court. It changed my life!! I started AA due to the judges order. I was scared but f...
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new here.. not sure..
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this is my first post so bare with me please, thought i would try this out... im a 24 year old male, whom just got married, and find my alcoholism hurting some one else other than my self.. i was a meth addict from 14 to 21 and have used a few times since, but never fell back into it (thank the stars) but ended up...
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Irony
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On a lighter note...I get home the other night and there is a typed note from the condo association on my door. They are informing residents of my building that there has been rampant drug use and prostitution going on in one of the units in my building. They want any help and assistance possible to evi...
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missed u guys!!!
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good to be back on here..lost this site when i got the new computer and was grateful for the note in my e-mail today...yay!!! so good to see you all! big hugs and have a happy 24!!
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cindy
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I need help.
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I am a recovery drug addict and i have been clean for about 2 years now but my boyfriend has a problem with drinking. I have tried to explain to him that i know what he is going through but he tells me that my addiction isnt the same because I was a pill junkie and heavy cocaine user and I have tried to make him...
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Sara
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feeling Down
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Sorry to say i did not wake up sober today
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Tough Going Right Now
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My Alkie wants OUTTTT!!!!! Kid's birthday party...pumpkin carving...wife in control...I'm not. I'm feeling shorted. I'm feeling like all my weekends belong to someone else. The dog crap hasn't been cleaned up in weeks. Not my dog - son's dog. Front yard stinks like a ghetto. My alkie is holding up...
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Glad I found this Forum.
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Im 6 days sober and it's been rough I tell ya!! Body seems to be playing tricks on me, the depression has set in, the anxiety amounts are unbearable at times. Anyways, I pretty much drink everyday. Straight after work I would get a six pack of 16oz beers just to relax. Never had a DUI or anything, but im not g...
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An Attitude of Powerlessness
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First - Hello Everyone! Hope you all are well, it's been a little while. *Grace of God - I'm still sober. Wanted to share that I went to a new meeting on my side of town last night. Mostly the young, in sobriety, running the meeting and it was great. When I say young, under a year. It was sprinkled with...
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