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Went to a meeting
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Went to back to back meetings tonight. Kind of got some perspective on whats going on and with the help of my family here on M.I.P. and friends in the program. I just got a phone call from my brother. Just as I was typing. He doesn't want me living here if I'm getting high. I promised him I will not relapse bef...
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Grateful to have a "Full Plate"
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Honestly I don't know what I would do right now if God hadn't given me SO many responsibilities and "issues" to deal with right now. Drinking has never sounded nor felt so WRONG and stupid than it does right now. lol Old house is 90% cleaned out now (God, it is so pretty). Check. The "part...
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The Alcoholic Is The Professional "Victim"
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Disclaimer: This is not my writing but it is interesting and as an Alcoholic I can identify with it. Larry, ------------------- The Alcoholic Is The Professional "Victim" In keeping with their feeling that everything is everyone else's' fault, the alcoholic assumes the role of pr...
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Even If I Don't Know The Question
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... I still find my answers in meetings. Some people say that the program is in the book, that meetings are just icing on the cake. Not for me. Without meetings, there is no AA for me. So often, I have no idea what is going on with me. I will have a feeling of unease that won't go away, and I can't find it. I'...
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Interesting Lead tonight--- what do you think??
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Hi guys, just got back from a lead meeting. The young man at the podium tonight described how this disease took him to a bridge and he stated that he was so selfish that he even resolved to smoke his entire last pack of cigarettes before he jumped, lest God forbid someone else found them and got to smoke his...
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I need help
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I feel like I am dying inside. I was talking to my brother for the 1st time since I overdosed. I feel like such a piece of shit. He asked me why I relapsed, that I should be stronger than that by now. Told me it seemed like I hadn't been working a program. I told him I stopped a month ago when I got to the 8th step. T...
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The Alcoholic And Constant Rationalization/Justification
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Disclaimer: This is not my writing but it is interesting and as an Alcoholic I can identify with it. Larry, ------------------- The Alcoholic And Constant Rationalization/Justification The alcoholic can rationalize and justify anything and everything. And since their behavior is often...
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Bill Wilson and Henry Ford
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Henry Ford did not invent the car; he produced an automobile that was within the economic reach of the average American. While other manufacturers were content to target a market of the well-to-do, Ford developed a design and a method of manufacture that steadily reduced the cost of the Model T. Inst...
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"God, grant me the serenity. . ."
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Today's thought from Hazelden is: "God, grant me the serenity. . ." The Serenity Prayer has the potential of changing our lives concretely. The hardest part is remembering to rely on it. What the prayer offers is an opportunity to quiet our minds long enough to sense what our Higher Power w...
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4th & 5th step retreat.
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My Monday night group leaves for a retreat this weekend, to a resort on the south coast of Natal in SA. 22 of us alcoholics go there to do a strenuous work to help new ones with their steps. Friday night, after supper we take the 3rd step prayer together. During the week preceding the retreat the elders of t...
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I love this message board!
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That's all. I just wanted everyone to know that I love it here.
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She is gone and in a better place
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My grandma died last night. She was 89!!! She was my mother's mother. My mother died in an alcoholic car accident when she was 29. My grandma had to bury her at such a young age. My grandma had 11 children. She put up with a mean angry alcoholic (my grandpa) who never got sober. My grandma came to her senses a...
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I never realized how lucky I was
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That AA was so simple when I got sober You just did what you were told, and the funny thing? it worked it worked for everybody I know I came to AA young, so I listened, and there was a strong program in my area, which was The San Francisco Bay Area in the early 90's, actually right north, place called Marin, wh...
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Rough Day
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My father passed away on September 23, 2008. Today is his birthday and I really miss him. We had our rough patches but the last five years he was my best friend. The sadness and anxiety set in early and became more powerful throughout the day. I left work early, prayed, and went for about an hour long w...
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me, have resentments?????
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last night at a meeting the topic was resentments.... the ones that are hard to let die. turning a resentment over to our HP is not effective if we keep dwelling on it after we "turned it over" and keep bringing it up to the surface and to other AAs. meetings are great places to air the probl...
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Normally mild mannered and nice, my nerves have shot that to the curb again
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Hello there good people, (Note: I currently have a clean driving record) I went to the gas station last week. A guy pulls right out in front of me in the parking lot and I couldn't stop in time, so boom. That man didn't a bit more look at me when he was driving than the man in the moon, i said to the police off...
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Introduction
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Hi, my name is Laurie and I'm an alcoholic. Thought I'd try starting my day off this way and see where it goes...
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Crabby Alcoholic
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... and boy does it show!! Gotta sh&tload of resentments I am working on right now in Step 4 too.... more will be revealed! Love you guys
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Three grand essentials to happiness -- from Hazelden
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Today's thought from Hazelden is: Three grand essentials to happiness in this life are something to do, something to love, and something to hope for. --Joseph Addison Having someone to bestow our love on - a child, friend, or lover, perhaps a pet - will provide us with a time each day for intimacy, a tim...
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Daily Reflections ~ The Easier, Softer Way & 24hrs a Day
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If we skip this vital step, we may not overcome drinking. Alcoholics Anonymous, p. 72 I certainly didn't leap at the opportunity to face who I was, especially when the pains of my drinking days hung over me like a dark cloud. But I soon heard at the meetings about the fellow member who just didn't want to t...
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Something valuable to share!
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Outside reading.I have found this pertinent to all who carry the message of recovery.It talks of 'SOMETHING VALUABLE TO SHARE" a simple honest message of recovery from alcoholism always rings true.Check it out! YOU MAY IiDENTIFY... Your sitting at a meeting/celebration etc and first few...
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Looking for an affirmation...
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Let me hear it from you fellows...Anyone experience crosstalk jabber during the opening protocol of your meetings specifically during the reading of "how it works" when just before the reader mentions "the point is..." someone shouts out "So what's the point?"...
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Re: Divorce
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Hi, I need some advice. I am new to the forum and this is my first post. I have recently stopped drinking and am two months sober. Two days after I decided that I needed to quit drinking, my husband hit me with divorce papers, on my birthday nonetheless. He is angry and his biggest issue with me is that i...
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17 days today..
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Long time no update...Feeling ok... I wish I could just fast forward sometimes. I hate having almost 60 blowing it, then almost 90 and blowing it. But this time I am determined to try and not blow it again... one day at a time..
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Top priority for me,the rest will trickle down!
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My spiritual readings for this morning tell me"When I have learnt to love God better than my earthly dearest, I shall love my earthly dearest better than I do now. Only by the Grace of God(His unmerited favor for me)do I enter today,sober and striving thru prayer and meditation to improve my co...
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The Alcoholic And Mood Swings
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Disclaimer: This is not my writing but it is interesting and as an Alcoholic I can identify with it. Larry, ------------------- The Alcoholic And Mood Swings Each time the medication (alcohol) is taken, it reacts within the alcoholic's system. So theoretically, if that "system"...
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HORSE now has a full saddle....
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Hi All, Never talk about this, very personal, and also did not "feel good" about it.....for Medical reasons, I have had to stay away from crowds of people,which of course rules out AA Meetings, have only gone to some on Sundays where I know the attendance is very low.... But for the last 2 we...
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Who are you when you black out?
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How do you explain to others/yourself who you become when you've blacked out? Do you feel as if you become an entirely different person, or that you are acting out feelings you normally keep pent up inside? Apparently when I was drinking, I told my friend that I loved her romantically, but I have no me...
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Come out of the rain
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I have to admit I am finding online AA new, different and confusing, it's like suddenly, after living for 20 years where the sky is blue, to a place where the sky is green, it's literally that foreign and confusing to me. It's like I come from a place where it rained on me every day, i got sores, fell down, co...
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Daily Reflections ~ The Past Is Over & 24hrs a Day
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A.A. experience has taught us we cannot live alone with our pressing problems and the character defects which cause or aggravate them. If . . . Step Four . . . has revealed in stark relief those experiences we'd rather not remember . . . then the need to quit living by ourselves with those tormenting ghos...
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H.A.L.T. tonight's recovery BREATHER
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Sometimes it is good to "take a powder" and wash off the challenges, hard work and exhaustion of a day. They tell us in AA that we need ot take care of our bodies while we get to the business of staying sober in AA. Rome wasn't built in a day, you know. AAers warn that sometimes it is good to H.A.L.T...
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I like AA better...
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than Intensive Out Patient therapy. For one thing...maybe 10% of them WANT to be there or even recognize the NEED! How can a guy with three year's probation and four teeth honestly say "my meth use hasn't done anybody any harm." Something really good came out of it, though. We get this.....
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Are you ashamed?
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I was wondering if anyone feels ashamed of being an alcoholic? I do feel ashamed but I downloaded the big book and I was listening to it, and the guy said some things that made me start to think of myself as having a genuine illness. Just like lupus or ocd or being allergic to penicillin even, and I started t...
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Yet another small miracle found in the Rooms of AA tonight
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I decided earlier to go to a 9pm discussion meeting, and a relative (Al Anon) was over at about 7 as I was starting to "get ready".... when she left I realized I was getting ready for an 8pm meeting... hmmm... so I said, "hey, I'll just go to the 8pm meeting and get home to relax a little earl...
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Words of Wisdom.love it!
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Outside readings"I keep hearing about "real " alcoholics the newcomer said to her sponsor.What is the difference between and alcoholic and a "real" alcoholic? Sponsor says 'The same as the difference between "dead" and real dead"..I love profound s...
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Why? How? I drank.
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I can't begin to express the shame, the regret, the pain, humiliation and the betrayal I feel. I don't remember getting home. I don't remember calling my sponsor, but my wife (who is now right back to "stay vs. go") said that my sponsor suggested going into treatment. She said that I got up at...
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Daily Reflections ~ A New Sense of Belonging & 24hrs a Day
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Until we had talked with complete candor of our conflicts, and had listened to someone else do the same thing, we still didn't belong. TWELVE STEPS AND TWELVE TRADITIONS, p. 57 After four years in A.A. I was able to discover the freedom from the burden of buried emotions that had caused me so much pain. W...
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I was told...
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On May 1st, I went to a meeting and the daily reflection was used for the topic and from it came... I must walk in darkness to find light and walk into fear to find peace . I sat there in amazement at the strong feeling of a God in the room... a very spiritual meeting. A meeting in which I came home and put my thou...
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Anyone see Crazy Heart?
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Watched the movie last night and really liked it. Anyone else see it? If not, I highly recommend it.
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Runnergirl
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I see you....hiding down there..... Let us know how you are, we want to know /hug
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Franny
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Dear God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, and the wisdom to know the difference. Relapsed tonigt. I guess you all were right that I need to go to AA meetings. 28 days gone down the tubes..... May peace be with you......... Franny
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It's Working :o) TAKE HEED!!
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AA and common sense suggestions, that's it. A slip after a long time with no mettings, a month clean and sober again while going through a divorce, a serious hand unjury, a move out of my home and into an apartment, psychiatric issues, money issues, Group counseling at an outpatient facility, and a h...
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Looking to ride share in Arizona
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Hello my name is Matt and I live in Queen CreekArizona. Unfortunately in Queen Creek most of our meetings are late in the afternoon (7:30pm) and few and far between, I believe there is a total of 10 only per week. I prefer the 12:00 meetings at my home group G.I.T. in Chandler, Arizona however it is a 40 min...
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Feeling connected to something outside of ourselves - Hazelden
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Today's thought from Hazelden is: My relationship with nature and plants is almost like religion with me. --Monty Cralley Feeling connected to something outside of ourselves is important to our perception of life. And being alive assures us of many new situations. Maybe it's a move to a smaller res...
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A New Day
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After a busy week at work I am tired and my mind is wandering into that place that it shouldnt go. I got plenty of sleep last night and a few cups of coffee when I woke this morning. I will be fine.I think what is getting to me is loneliness. Living sober I have realized how isolated I have made my life. I h...
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Happy Mothers day to all Mothers
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Wishing all Mothers a great and happy Mothers Day!!!!!! Larry, ----------------- A mother is a person who seeing there are only four pieces of pie for five people, promptly announces she never did care for pie. ~Tenneva Jordan -- Edited by Larry_H on Sunday 9th of May 2010 06:56:39 AM
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Is Alcoholism The Result Of Nature Or Nurture?
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--------------------------------------------------- Is Alcoholism The Result Of Nature Or Nurture? The debate as to whether alcoholism is a product of nature (genetic) or nurture (l...
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Daily Reflections ~ Free At Last & 24hrs a Day
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Another great dividend we may expect from confiding our defects to another human being is humility - a word often misunderstood. . . . it amounts to a clear recognition of what and who we really are, followed by a sincere attempt to become what we could be. TWELVE STEPS AND TWELVE TRADITIONS, p. 58 I knew...
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Congratulating Our Newest Old Timer!!!
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Aha, Larry!!!! I know you're on 499 at the time of this posting but one more & you're there!!! LOL Thank you for all you share here. There's been much response to your sagely postings & you stimulate alot. Thank you for sharing in your recovery with us. You are a gift. Thank you for being here. God...
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i'm new here
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Hi all. I am nine days sober. Just saying hello. I am 29 years old. I drink to the point of blacking out regularly. It is these blackouts that have terrified me, as I become violent or other things happen to me that are very bad. I am terrified. I have come to accept Step 1. But I am having a really hard time &qu...
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