Alcoholics Anonymous

jonijoni1 · jonijoni1

I am at the end of my rope, literally, hanging on by a thread. I do NOT want to drink, but I also do not want to go on this way emotionally. The grief over not only my relationship, but over my mother, grief at the person I have become, I am in more pain than I have ever been and I am F--ing SOBER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ...

barryr · barryr

Hello, My name is Barry R and I am an alcoholic. I have started a new website, www.mylastdrunk.com and it is a place for you to share your "last drunk" story with other alcohlics and carry the message. Here is my last drunk story: My last drunk was January 25th 2008.The night began around 5p...

jonijoni1 · jonijoni1

Been "Showing Up" this week, at AA meetings, as well as "showing up" to do the things I love that are productive and good, which I have left by the wayside not only during drinking, but for a long time before the slip, when I was obsessed with hiding from reality and my own Truths. I w...

Larry_H · Larry_H

Disclaimer: This is not my writing but it is interesting and as an Alcoholic I can identify with it. Larry, ------------------- The Alcoholic And Isolation Many alcoholics become what we call solitary drinkers. They can't stand to be around most other people, and their drinking is done primaril...

Sobrietyspell · Sobrietyspell

Happy Happy Joy Joy for Today, Glenn. I hope you've had a very special 24 hours feeling loved, loving & loveable. Thinking of you this happy sober day, Danielle x

jazzyblue · jazzyblue

Hi, I have been in recovery for twenty years. Most of the twenty years have been sober, but in the last 4 and a half years I have had 5 relapses. The relapses are short lived, a couple of days, but they have been killer relapses and I know it is a miricle I am still alive. As soon as I relapse I get ri...

Tipsy McStagger · Tipsy McStagger

So how is everyone?

jcjohnson86 · jcjohnson86

Hi, my name is Chris J, and I am an alcoholic.I have found a home group here and and sponsor from my home group. But I thought it would be helpful for me to also find something like this online. Being new to this, many things have been brought to my attention(since im no longer ignoring everything). The mai...

aprilleaves · aprilleaves

I read it is important to make a list of why you don't want to drink, then keep that list with you, so here is my list. You can make the list here, or just write it to yourself, if you want to. I read this does help. Evertime you want to drink, read the list. That is what I am going to do. 1. Health reasons. I don't w...

Larry_H · Larry_H

Today's thought from Hazelden is: Perspective: It only takes a tiny seed to experience a different way of life Sowing tiny seeds, a ritual that farmers experience each spring, is the beginning of the life forms that will sustain them and many other families for the coming year. The miracle that a tin...

mikef · mikef

Morning everyone! For a lot of us it is back to the work week,our encounter with the worldly adventures of life. As I put on my ARMOR(my spiritual readings and my sword and shield of spiritual principles)I will try and spend this day as an empowered agent of the God of my understanding.I pray that this...

Larry_H · Larry_H

Disclaimer: This is not my writing but it is interesting and as an Alcoholic I can identify with it. I called it guilt instead of shame. Larry, ------------------- The Role Of Shame In Addictions Recent research indicates that "shame" plays a rather important role in addictions. If th...

Just Toni · Just Toni

Someone was showing me this software, and it only works on a "free" basis to other users of same. I have heard of it, like in very remote foreign countries. you can buy a little camera at Target for 20 to 40 bucks. Well I am so conservative, haha, maybe more of a scady cat when it comes to programs...

AGO · AGO

1. We admitted we were powerless over alcohol - that our lives had become unmanageable. Show up at a meeting of Alcoholics Anonymous, raise your hand, state your name followed by "I am an alcoholic" congratulations, you have taken step one, none of us flew in on the wings of victory, if a pow...

Sobrietyspell · Sobrietyspell

We are sure God wants us to be happy, joyous, and free. We cannot subscribe to the belief that this life is a vale of tears, though it once was just that for many of us. But it is clear that we made our own misery. God didn't do it. Avoid then, the deliberate manufacture of misery, but if trouble comes, cheerf...

gonee · gonee

The worst days of my drinking life and sobriety turned out to be the best things to share with newcomers. Its my broken life that was of maximum benefit to others. When I got sober in AA I was very excited, because such a huge addiction had been conquered. I was in for a big surprise, because recovery meant...

jonijoni1 · jonijoni1

Wow, wait til you hear this one. I am at my grandmother's calling hours today, my sponsor had stated that she was going to go with me to pay her respects. We get there and I see tons of relatives (grandma had 12 kids, and just to give you some background, my mother died drunk, in the car with another drunk, th...

gonee · gonee

I am very grateful to my sponsor for guiding me through my recovery. I was just over 3 years sober when I embarked on a thorough 4th & 5th step. My sponsor had told me I was going to get roaring drunk. It is frightening to see so many in AA without a sponsor, asking the same questions day in and day out. Fro...

Larry_H · Larry_H

Disclaimer: This is not my writing but it is interesting and as an Alcoholic I can identify with it. Larry, ------------------- The Alcoholic And Impulsiveness The alcoholic has little patience and does not like waiting for anything. This is combined with the fact that typically they also have r...

jj · jj

AGO started a post with steps 1,2,3 in 30 seconds. But this statement : They are called steps 4-12, they are what align my will with Gods will. This is a real eye opener for me. A very Key statement. Just as a boat or a plane can be on automatic pilot, my life...

Aquaman · Aquaman

So, I was talking with my wife the other night after rehab and I was saying that I felt numb and forgot how some emotions even felt. I was wrong. I'm still in touch with rejection and sadness. I'll give the resentment & anger to God. Today I shared E,S & H regarding how I was able, with the poer and g...

Aquaman · Aquaman

Hey ya'll, First off - I'm okay. Still sober and exactly 28-days no cigarettes! So, after my last relapse I stepped up my recovery efforts to include Intensive Out Patient Treatment and I had a light-bulb moment from putting 2+2+2 together and getting 6 that has stuck in my head for two days now and I'm l...

Sobrietyspell · Sobrietyspell

When the spiritual malady is overcome, we straighten out mentally and physically. ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS, p 64 It is very difficult for me to come to terms with my spiritual illness because of my great pride, disguised by my material successes and my intellectual power. Intelligence is not incompat...

Pablomoses · Pablomoses

Met up with a friend who has been sober 7 years, from another country last evening. I have been sober 5 years, two months. He and I were partners in insanity about 15 years ago......it was great to see him and for us to both be working programs. We hugged and kiss and had tears in our eyes and laughed at the j...

turninggrey · turninggrey

So, today is a big event in my life. It is being handled through a union grievance process. I am 100% in the right, but the situation does not always follow right or wrong, but grim, cold corporations and lawyers who really need step 3 very badly. Anyhow, my HP is God. I am Catholic, so pretty much its...

Sobrietyspell · Sobrietyspell

One exercise that I practice is to try for a full inventory of my blessings. . . . AS BILL SEES IT, p. 37 What did I have to be grateful for? I shut myself up and started listing the blessings for which I was in no way responsible, beginning with having been born of sound mind and body. I went through seventy-f...

Larry_H · Larry_H

Disclaimer: This is not my writing but it is interesting and as an Alcoholic I can identify with it. Larry, -------------------The Alcoholic And Feeling "Different" For most of their life, the typical alcoholic has felt they were "different" and that they didn't fit in wit...

jonijoni1 · jonijoni1

Last night I completely broke down. The urge to get p$ss-drunk was there. I called my sponsor to talk. She was in the car with another sponsee who was practicing "primal scream therapy" (a "fun" tool we have used in the past, more for humor than anything else) from the safety of my...

Larry_H · Larry_H

Disclaimer: This is not my writing but it is interesting and as an Alcoholic I can identify with it. Larry, ------------------- Alcoholics Are General Managers Of The World The alcoholic sees the world from the perspective of a mind that's addicted to a depressant. (alcohol) As a result, their v...

aprilleaves · aprilleaves

STEP 1: We admitted we were powerless over our addiction, an that our lives had become unmanageable. I just thought people could do this first step with me, so we all can join in. My name is Tina and I am addict. I am addicted to drinking vodka, beer, smoking and to video games. I am powerless over my addcti...

Larry_H · Larry_H

Disclaimer: This is not my writing but it is interesting and as an Alcoholic I can identify with it.Larry, ------------------- The Alcoholic And Resentment The alcoholic has a vault-like memory for every injustice they feel they've suffered and they will harbor a great deal of resentment towar...

Quetzal · Quetzal

Hi everyone, Just thought that I would say 'hello' to old friends, and new ones too! I'm still sober and celebrated my fourth AA birthday back in February. I finished my university course at the end of January and passed with a grade that I am pleased with. Unfortunately, on my first day off fro...

Oblong · Oblong

Hi Guys, I have a favor to ask... I have been looking for a little part time job for months now with no results. I don't want to work at a bar! I don't want to be around drinks. I'd like a coffee shop or a little office job or something. I need something to get me out of the house. I work freelance from home right n...

Sacrifice · Sacrifice

Hello to all of you wonderful ppl, Spoke to my mom just know and tomorrow is the one yr anniversay of my granfathers passing. My grandmother is with my mom and has had a very ruff couple of day(they were together for 65yrs). I pray today for her my mom and myself (for them mostly) to be able to get through the...

slugcat · slugcat

Sorry i had to edit this. scared someone from work would recognise me lol. had a bomb scare outside work today and it scared the crap out of me. I know now PTSD is still there. I flipped out almost. Others not scared. me really scared. Wierd thing wierded me out cause ive been having worried thoughts that a...

Larry_H · Larry_H

Disclaimer: This is not my writing but it is interesting and as an Alcoholic I can identify with it. Larry, ------------------- The Alcoholic And Perfectionism The alcoholic tries to over-compensate for their low self-esteem and self-worth by trying to be a perfectionist and will often demand p...

Zebes99 · Zebes99

Hello. I guess the first thing would be to admit I have a problem. I have only ever said it to one person before. And that would be my boyfriend. But for some reason I don`t think he understands just how much of a problem it is. I really can`t pinpoint when it started. I guess probablly around the time...

StPeteDean · StPeteDean

and we read step number 4 (from the 12 & 12). Lot's of good stuff in there and it's been awhile since I've read it. Maybe it's time for another step 4. How about a roll call. Have you done your 4th step yet? If so, how was it, and if not, when? -- Edited by StPeteDean on Sunday 16th of May 2010 08:23:1...

Toad · Toad

Hi, May 17 ,1979 I had my last drink. I remember it clearly. I drank to get to the place of no pain. Just as I had always done. It worked. No pain. Shortly after " my time came", my time came. My sufficient bottom was offered to me. the "pitiful and incomprehensible moral degeneration&qu...

Larry_H · Larry_H

Today's thought from Hazelden is: Moral Inventory It is fortunate that we can think in secret, because our thoughts would quickly get us in trouble if others could read them. In our thoughts, we can choose what we wish to reveal to others before we speak or act. In the long run, however, we do not really c...

Reffner · Reffner

Hello friends. I hope everyone is doing well today. Things here at home are simply average, in a good way . I got a call from a local rehab center this morning to set up an appointment for an interview. Not an intake interview, but a job interview ! I spoke with the lady in charge of the program and she w...

stevenlchilds · stevenlchilds

Try to not judge others. See yourself as everyones equal; not better and not worse than others. Try to be free from the erroneous thinking of normal people. Have compassion on the normal people who have thinking errors about shame and guilt. They have not healed their original wounds that happen...

aprilleaves · aprilleaves

My ex husband lived most of his life going in and out of prision, when he was out of prision, which usually lasted a few months, he would drink, do drugs, like pot and he would go live on the streets. This guy was not dumb and when he wanted to have a job, he did work, but that never lasted long. He had book smart...

Aquaman · Aquaman

I love my job as a radio advertising salesperson and copy-writer. It's fun. I'm making a positive contribution to the culture and economy of my little corner of the world...but sometimes I see my job in another light: I am instrumental in consumerism. I AM the effin' media, I just try to use my Powe...

FlyingSquirrel · FlyingSquirrel

Been driving my soon to be ex-wife around since she lost her driving privileges. Took her to a meeting tonight, and all it took was one sentence out of her mouth to send me off the deep end. Why the f*** can she not manage to stop rubbing salt in the wound that she created when she did an early 9th step on me a...

Just Toni · Just Toni

Hi All, Just wanted to share some great news. I have been in a deep dark depression, and getting back to meetings....well nothing was budging.....I have been doing a ton of Prayers my Higher Power.... And Dean Post yesterday was right where I was at, was looking at another 4th Step.....and then finall...

mikef · mikef

Morning! This coming Saturday(22nd) director of Joseph's House , a facility for people recovering from substance abuse is putting on a 1st ever 'Walkway over the Hudson! to celebrate those in recovery.I live in upstate New York in a town called Poughkeepsie.Last year the community paved a bu...

DBZ · DBZ

First off, if this thread is too negative or otherwise inappropriate, feel free to delete. Or if a thread like this already exists please merge if necessary - wouldn't know how to search for it in this case. Yesterday was my 5th meeting in total so I'm not totally sure of the lay of the land. But something...

Larry_H · Larry_H

Today's thought from Hazelden is: The trouble is not that we are never happy - it is that happiness is so episodical. --Ruth Benedict Happiness is our birthright. The decision to be happy is ours to make, every day, when confronted with any experience. Too many of us grew up believing that life needed t...

gonee · gonee

"Being all powerful.He provided what we needed, if we kept close to Him and performed His work well." When this realization dawned on me, I begin to see how powerful the AA program really was. In 1992 I sat at my office desk one morning, with just over 4 years of sobriety and truly began to pond...

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	Desparate cry for prayer (Preview) I am at the end of my rope, literally, hanging on by a thread. I do NOT want to drink, but I also do not want to go on this way emotionally. The grief over not only my relationship, but over my mother, grief at the person I have become, I am in more pain than I have ever been and I am F--ing SOBER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ...	jonijoni1	13	968	May 25, 2010 by Mike B.
	My Last Drunk - New Website! (Preview) Hello, My name is Barry R and I am an alcoholic. I have started a new website, www.mylastdrunk.com and it is a place for you to share your "last drunk" story with other alcohlics and carry the message. Here is my last drunk story: My last drunk was January 25th 2008.The night began around 5p...	barryr	0	946	May 25, 2010 by barryr
	Showing Up is Key (Preview) Been "Showing Up" this week, at AA meetings, as well as "showing up" to do the things I love that are productive and good, which I have left by the wayside not only during drinking, but for a long time before the slip, when I was obsessed with hiding from reality and my own Truths. I w...	jonijoni1	5	519	May 24, 2010 by Aquaman
	The Alcoholic And Isolation (Preview) Disclaimer: This is not my writing but it is interesting and as an Alcoholic I can identify with it. Larry, ------------------- *The Alcoholic And Isolation* Many alcoholics become what we call solitary drinkers. They can't stand to be around most other people, and their drinking is done primaril...	Larry_H	4	7479	May 24, 2010 by janet
	Happy 42nd Bellybutton Birthday, Flying Squirrel! (Preview) *Happy Happy Joy Joy for Today, Glenn. I hope you've had a very special 24 hours feeling loved, loving & loveable. Thinking of you this happy sober day, Danielle x*	Sobrietyspell	6	851	May 24, 2010 by FlyingSquirrel
	Serenity (Preview) Hi, I have been in recovery for twenty years. Most of the twenty years have been sober, but in the last 4 and a half years I have had 5 relapses. The relapses are short lived, a couple of days, but they have been killer relapses and I know it is a miricle I am still alive. As soon as I relapse I get ri...	jazzyblue	7	647	May 24, 2010 by jazzyblue
	Hiya :) (Preview) So how is everyone?	Tipsy McStagger	24	1164	May 24, 2010 by cooncatbob
	New and Confused (Preview) Hi, my name is Chris J, and I am an alcoholic.I have found a home group here and and sponsor from my home group. But I thought it would be helpful for me to also find something like this online. Being new to this, many things have been brought to my attention(since im no longer ignoring everything). The mai...	jcjohnson86	12	908	May 24, 2010 by Cait
	List reasons why you don't want to drink alcohol (Preview) I read it is important to make a list of why you don't want to drink, then keep that list with you, so here is my list. You can make the list here, or just write it to yourself, if you want to. I read this does help. Evertime you want to drink, read the list. That is what I am going to do. 1. Health reasons. I don't w...	aprilleaves	33	1823	May 24, 2010 by sandy2010
	Sowing tiny seeds (Preview) Today's thought from Hazelden is: Perspective: It only takes a tiny seed to experience a different way of life Sowing tiny seeds, a ritual that farmers experience each spring, is the beginning of the life forms that will sustain them and many other families for the coming year. The miracle that a tin...	Larry_H	2	553	May 24, 2010 by Mike B.
	Empowered agents of God! (Preview) Morning everyone! For a lot of us it is back to the work week,our encounter with the worldly adventures of life. As I put on my ARMOR(my spiritual readings and my sword and shield of spiritual principles)I will try and spend this day as an empowered agent of the God of my understanding.I pray that this...	mikef	1	658	May 24, 2010 by gonee
	The Role Of Shame In Addictions (Preview) Disclaimer: This is not my writing but it is interesting and as an Alcoholic I can identify with it. I called it guilt instead of shame. Larry, ------------------- The Role Of Shame In Addictions Recent research indicates that "shame" plays a rather important role in addictions. If th...	Larry_H	7	1743	May 24, 2010 by StPeteDean
	OFF Topic, but does anyone use Skype for webcam internet calling?? (Preview) Someone was showing me this software, and it only works on a "free" basis to other users of same. I have heard of it, like in very remote foreign countries. you can buy a little camera at Target for 20 to 40 bucks. Well I am so conservative, haha, maybe more of a scady cat when it comes to programs...	Just Toni	8	2400	May 23, 2010 by Cait
	Steps 1-2-3 in 30 seconds (Preview) 1. We admitted we were powerless over alcohol - that our lives had become unmanageable. Show up at a meeting of Alcoholics Anonymous, raise your hand, state your name followed by "I am an alcoholic" congratulations, you have taken step one, none of us flew in on the wings of victory, if a pow...	AGO	14	1036	May 23, 2010 by AGO
	Daily Reflections ~ Happy, Joyous and Free & 24hrs a Day (Preview) We are sure God wants us to be happy, joyous, and free. We cannot subscribe to the belief that this life is a vale of tears, though it once was just that for many of us. But it is clear that we made our own misery. God didn't do it. Avoid then, the deliberate manufacture of misery, but if trouble comes, cheerf...	Sobrietyspell	0	1357	May 23, 2010 by Sobrietyspell
	Brokenness (Preview) The worst days of my drinking life and sobriety turned out to be the best things to share with newcomers. Its my broken life that was of maximum benefit to others. When I got sober in AA I was very excited, because such a huge addiction had been conquered. I was in for a big surprise, because recovery meant...	gonee	5	652	May 23, 2010 by StPeteDean
	UN-BEE-LIEVABLE "AA miracle" stuff!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (Preview) Wow, wait til you hear this one. I am at my grandmother's calling hours today, my sponsor had stated that she was going to go with me to pay her respects. We get there and I see tons of relatives (grandma had 12 kids, and just to give you some background, my mother died drunk, in the car with another drunk, th...	jonijoni1	14	1327	May 23, 2010 by Dave Harm
	Sponsorship (Preview) I am very grateful to my sponsor for guiding me through my recovery. I was just over 3 years sober when I embarked on a thorough 4th & 5th step. My sponsor had told me I was going to get roaring drunk. It is frightening to see so many in AA without a sponsor, asking the same questions day in and day out. Fro...	gonee	6	1222	May 23, 2010 by SteveP
	The Alcoholic And Impulsiveness (Preview) Disclaimer: This is not my writing but it is interesting and as an Alcoholic I can identify with it. Larry, ------------------- *The Alcoholic And Impulsiveness* The alcoholic has little patience and does not like waiting for anything. This is combined with the fact that typically they also have r...	Larry_H	3	520	May 23, 2010 by SteveP
	They are called steps 4-12, those are what align my will with Gods will (Preview) AGO started a post with steps 1,2,3 in 30 seconds. But this statement : They are called steps 4-12, they are what align my will with Gods will. This is a real eye opener for me. A very Key statement. Just as a boat or a plane can be on automatic pilot, my life...	jj	2	1085	May 22, 2010 by jonijoni1
	Good to know that I can feel... (Preview) So, I was talking with my wife the other night after rehab and I was saying that I felt numb and forgot how some emotions even felt. I was wrong. I'm still in touch with rejection and sadness. I'll give the resentment & anger to God. Today I shared E,S & H regarding how I was able, with the poer and g...	Aquaman	12	1340	May 22, 2010 by leeu
	Cunning, Baffling and Powerful... (Preview) Hey ya'll, First off - I'm okay. Still sober and exactly 28-days no cigarettes! So, after my last relapse I stepped up my recovery efforts to include Intensive Out Patient Treatment and I had a light-bulb moment from putting 2+2+2 together and getting 6 that has stuck in my head for two days now and I'm l...	Aquaman	16	3188	May 22, 2010 by leeu
	Daily Reflections ~ Spiritual Health & 24hrs a Day (Preview) When the spiritual malady is overcome, we straighten out mentally and physically. ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS, p 64 It is very difficult for me to come to terms with my spiritual illness because of my great pride, disguised by my material successes and my intellectual power. Intelligence is not incompat...	Sobrietyspell	0	437	May 22, 2010 by Sobrietyspell
	Sober evening with former partner in insanity...... (Preview) Met up with a friend who has been sober 7 years, from another country last evening. I have been sober 5 years, two months. He and I were partners in insanity about 15 years ago......it was great to see him and for us to both be working programs. We hugged and kiss and had tears in our eyes and laughed at the j...	Pablomoses	5	662	May 22, 2010 by StPeteDean
	Small, Quiet Signs Of HP (Preview) So, today is a big event in my life. It is being handled through a union grievance process. I am 100% in the right, but the situation does not always follow right or wrong, but grim, cold corporations and lawyers who really need step 3 very badly. Anyhow, my HP is God. I am Catholic, so pretty much its...	turninggrey	5	567	May 21, 2010 by turninggrey
	Daily Reflections ~ A List of Blessings & 24hrs a Day (Preview) One exercise that I practice is to try for a full inventory of my blessings. . . . AS BILL SEES IT, p. 37 What did I have to be grateful for? I shut myself up and started listing the blessings for which I was in no way responsible, beginning with having been born of sound mind and body. I went through seventy-f...	Sobrietyspell	0	719	May 21, 2010 by Sobrietyspell
	The Alcoholic And Feeling “Different” (Preview) Disclaimer: This is not my writing but it is interesting and as an Alcoholic I can identify with it. Larry, -------------------The Alcoholic And Feeling "Different" For most of their life, the typical alcoholic has felt they were "different" and that they didn't fit in wit...	Larry_H	2	776	May 21, 2010 by Larry_H
	More Drama, but Ceased Fighting (at least for today) (Preview) Last night I completely broke down. The urge to get p$ss-drunk was there. I called my sponsor to talk. She was in the car with another sponsee who was practicing "primal scream therapy" (a "fun" tool we have used in the past, more for humor than anything else) from the safety of my...	jonijoni1	8	1418	May 21, 2010 by jonijoni1
	Alcoholics Are General Managers Of The World (Preview) Disclaimer: This is not my writing but it is interesting and as an Alcoholic I can identify with it. Larry, ------------------- *Alcoholics Are General Managers Of The World* The alcoholic sees the world from the perspective of a mind that's addicted to a depressant. (alcohol) As a result, their v...	Larry_H	3	625	May 21, 2010 by aprilleaves
	STEP 1: We admitted we were powerless over our addictions (Preview) STEP 1: We admitted we were powerless over our addiction, an that our lives had become unmanageable. I just thought people could do this first step with me, so we all can join in. My name is Tina and I am addict. I am addicted to drinking vodka, beer, smoking and to video games. I am powerless over my addcti...	aprilleaves	12	1189	May 21, 2010 by Mike B.
	The Alcoholic And Resentment (Preview) Disclaimer: This is not my writing but it is interesting and as an Alcoholic I can identify with it.Larry, ------------------- *The Alcoholic And Resentment* The alcoholic has a vault-like memory for every injustice they feel they've suffered and they will harbor a great deal of resentment towar...	Larry_H	8	3855	May 21, 2010 by AGO
	Just Checking In (Preview) Hi everyone, Just thought that I would say 'hello' to old friends, and new ones too! I'm still sober and celebrated my fourth AA birthday back in February. I finished my university course at the end of January and passed with a grade that I am pleased with. Unfortunately, on my first day off fro...	Quetzal	5	593	May 20, 2010 by pinkchip
	For those who believe in the power of prayer... (Preview) Hi Guys, I have a favor to ask... I have been looking for a little part time job for months now with no results. I don't want to work at a bar! I don't want to be around drinks. I'd like a coffee shop or a little office job or something. I need something to get me out of the house. I work freelance from home right n...	Oblong	11	809	May 20, 2010 by turninggrey
	Loss of my grandfather (Preview) Hello to all of you wonderful ppl, Spoke to my mom just know and tomorrow is the one yr anniversay of my granfathers passing. My grandmother is with my mom and has had a very ruff couple of day(they were together for 65yrs). I pray today for her my mom and myself (for them mostly) to be able to get through the...	Sacrifice	8	611	May 20, 2010 by Larry_H
	had a bad day (Preview) Sorry i had to edit this. scared someone from work would recognise me lol. had a bomb scare outside work today and it scared the crap out of me. I know now PTSD is still there. I flipped out almost. Others not scared. me really scared. Wierd thing wierded me out cause ive been having worried thoughts that a...	slugcat	11	955	May 20, 2010 by slugcat
	The Alcoholic And Perfectionism (Preview) Disclaimer: This is not my writing but it is interesting and as an Alcoholic I can identify with it. Larry, ------------------- *The Alcoholic And Perfectionism* The alcoholic tries to over-compensate for their low self-esteem and self-worth by trying to be a perfectionist and will often demand p...	Larry_H	7	4342	May 20, 2010 by pinkchip
	Day 1? (Preview) Hello. I guess the first thing would be to admit I have a problem. I have only ever said it to one person before. And that would be my boyfriend. But for some reason I don`t think he understands just how much of a problem it is. I really can`t pinpoint when it started. I guess probablly around the time...	Zebes99	10	551	May 20, 2010 by pinkchip
	The meeting I attended tonight was a step meeting (Preview) and we read step number 4 (from the 12 & 12). Lot's of good stuff in there and it's been awhile since I've read it. Maybe it's time for another step 4. How about a roll call. Have you done your 4th step yet? If so, how was it, and if not, when? -- Edited by StPeteDean on Sunday 16th of May 2010 08:23:1...	StPeteDean	10	638	May 20, 2010 by pinkchip
	Last Drunk, (Preview) Hi, May 17 ,1979 I had my last drink. I remember it clearly. I drank to get to the place of no pain. Just as I had always done. It worked. No pain. Shortly after " my time came", my time came. My sufficient bottom was offered to me. the "pitiful and incomprehensible moral degeneration&qu...	Toad	16	802	May 20, 2010 by pinkchip
	Moral Inventory (Preview) Today's thought from Hazelden is: Moral Inventory It is fortunate that we can think in secret, because our thoughts would quickly get us in trouble if others could read them. In our thoughts, we can choose what we wish to reveal to others before we speak or act. In the long run, however, we do not really c...	Larry_H	4	1104	May 20, 2010 by pinkchip
	Excited and scared... (Preview) Hello friends. I hope everyone is doing well today. Things here at home are simply average, in a good way . I got a call from a local rehab center this morning to set up an appointment for an interview. Not an intake interview, but a job interview ! I spoke with the lady in charge of the program and she w...	Reffner	5	1009	May 20, 2010 by pinkchip
	Normal People (Preview) Try to not judge others. See yourself as everyones equal; not better and not worse than others. Try to be free from the erroneous thinking of normal people. Have compassion on the normal people who have thinking errors about shame and guilt. They have not healed their original wounds that happen...	stevenlchilds	7	1015	May 20, 2010 by Pablomoses
	A life of an Addict, this is a sad story.. and true. (Preview) My ex husband lived most of his life going in and out of prision, when he was out of prision, which usually lasted a few months, he would drink, do drugs, like pot and he would go live on the streets. This guy was not dumb and when he wanted to have a job, he did work, but that never lasted long. He had book smart...	aprilleaves	5	1174	May 20, 2010 by Mandy123
	Thinking of a career change... (Preview) I love my job as a radio advertising salesperson and copy-writer. It's fun. I'm making a positive contribution to the culture and economy of my little corner of the world...but sometimes I see my job in another light: I am instrumental in consumerism. I AM the effin' media, I just try to use my Powe...	Aquaman	11	959	May 20, 2010 by bikerbill
	Bah, and assorted F-bombs (Preview) Been driving my soon to be ex-wife around since she lost her driving privileges. Took her to a meeting tonight, and all it took was one sentence out of her mouth to send me off the deep end. Why the f*** can she not manage to stop rubbing salt in the wound that she created when she did an early 9th step on me a...	FlyingSquirrel	17	1468	May 20, 2010 by FlyingSquirrel
	HE Restoreth my soul! (Preview) Hi All, Just wanted to share some great news. I have been in a deep dark depression, and getting back to meetings....well nothing was budging.....I have been doing a ton of Prayers my Higher Power.... And Dean Post yesterday was right where I was at, was looking at another 4th Step.....and then finall...	Just Toni	5	854	May 19, 2010 by StPeteDean
	I AM RECOVERY (Preview) Morning! This coming Saturday(22nd) director of Joseph's House , a facility for people recovering from substance abuse is putting on a 1st ever 'Walkway over the Hudson! to celebrate those in recovery.I live in upstate New York in a town called Poughkeepsie.Last year the community paved a bu...	mikef	4	957	May 19, 2010 by mikef
	attempts to scam at meetings? (Preview) First off, if this thread is too negative or otherwise inappropriate, feel free to delete. Or if a thread like this already exists please merge if necessary - wouldn't know how to search for it in this case. Yesterday was my 5th meeting in total so I'm not totally sure of the lay of the land. But something...	DBZ	15	1786	May 19, 2010 by barisax
	The decision to be happy is ours to make (Preview) Today's thought from Hazelden is: The trouble is not that we are never happy - it is that happiness is so episodical. --Ruth Benedict Happiness is our birthright. The decision to be happy is ours to make, every day, when confronted with any experience. Too many of us grew up believing that life needed t...	Larry_H	3	770	May 18, 2010 by Cait
	"We had a new Employer" Pg 63 AA book (Preview) "Being all powerful.He provided what we needed, if we kept close to Him and performed His work well." When this realization dawned on me, I begin to see how powerful the AA program really was. In 1992 I sat at my office desk one morning, with just over 4 years of sobriety and truly began to pond...	gonee	1	4858	May 18, 2010 by slugcat
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