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Im hoping I'm using this forum correctly.
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Hi I just need someone to talk to right now. I don't know where to begin. Ever since I was 17 I wanted to be a bartender. I was one on and off I am 25 now. I began partying with high school friends my junior year. I was 15 or16.
I buy beautiful cocktail dresses... For when I go to places to drink.
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God Calling - Gentle With All
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"Love and laugh. Make your world the happier for your being in it. Love and rejoice on the grey days. Be gentle with all. Try to see the heart I see, to know the pain and difficulty of the other life that I know. Try, before you interview anyone or speak to anyone, to ask Me to act as interpreter bet...
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Wifes opinion is her Mothers
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What are you supposed to do when your wife has never seperated from her mother emotionally or mentally and all her opinions are her mothers ???? This includes the "truth" about people places and things and sometimes they are important things that affect our marriage. I've tried pointin...
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maybe I'm learning
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tonight that special someone called and asked me to help. Asked me to take her to a meeting. So I took her and she had her drinking hat on. Somethimg wrong with this picture and I so desperately wanted to fix her.. But a flash of reality. I'm as powerless over alcohol re:her as I am with me. Nothing I could do...
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Upate on my little life.........the blessings of Sobriety
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Really dont know why I titled this the way I did, but whatever. When GOD pulled my up and out of gutter, many years ago, the road has sure been full of the ups and downs in life....so greatful to my HP, that I have lived to expience them all, good and bad. This current update is neither good nor bad, it is well...
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Inspiring Story
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I was at a meeting last week where the speaker basically pressured the one newcomer to share (I HATE when people do that!).
It turns out she had had years of sobriety, went out, and now has terminal cancer.
She came back because she wants to die sober, and she wants to be fully present and not drinking...
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God Calling - Golden Opportunity
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"I am your Guide. Strength and help will come to you; just trust Me wholly. Fear not. I am ever more ready to hear than you to ask. Walk in my ways and know that help will come. Man's need is God's chance to help. Man's need is God's golden opportunity for him of letting his faith find expression. ...
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Here we go again...
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Another event where I rely on experience and God and program. As it happens I was on my way to the bank to join a couple other members of my Sunday group to sign checking account cards. We're changing treasurers and alternates and I was stepping up. Made a decision to take the shortest route even with l...
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changed my avatar
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It's pretty small but it's a sketch of a proposed tattoo that someone would like. I've suggested that it should wait a year tho' as tats are pretty permanent. Text reads 'it's not who we are that holds us back, it's who we think we're not.' If anyone can get the meaning of that, then let me know! Other than...
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Am i having a mid Life Crisis?
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Talking with a civvy buddy last night, he suggested that I was having a mid life crisis and recommended that I look for the Mid Life Crisis forum. I'll look for that later. Over here, MLC has particular negative and comedic connotations aong the lines of: Mid Life crisis - grow your hair, dress too youn...
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remember it's not happening today, so it don't count.
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Just got an e mail from Fleet Management, telling me that because I have done 57 miles less than the annual requirement for provision of a business needs car and have used it for 13 days less than the requirement, then either I hand the car back by 11th June or submit a new business case. So the business cas...
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God Calling - April 11
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"Remember that My followers are to be a peculiar people, separated from among others. Different ways, a different standard of living different customs, actuated by different motives. Pray for love. Pray for My spirit of love to be showered on all you meet. Deal with yourself severely. Le...
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Daily Reflections ~ A Word to Drop: "Blame" & 24hrs a Day
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To see how erratic emotions victimized us often took a long time. We could perceive them quickly in others, but only slowly in ourselves. First of all, we had to admit that we had many of these defects, even though such disclosures were painful and humiliating. Where other people were concerned, we ha...
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The worst place to live.....
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.....just had a long chat with one of my civvy buddies. His wife died 4 years ago and he just found an old letter she wrote him several years ago and read a bit out to me. She said'.....and the worst place to live is on a pedestal.' Blew me away.
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Daily Reflections ~ Giving Up Insanity & 24hrs a day
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. . . where alcohol has been involved, we have been strangely insane. ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS, p. 38 Alcoholism required me to drink, whether I wanted to or not. Insanity dominated my life and was the essence of my disease. It robbed me of the freedom of choice over drinking and, therefore, robbed me of al...
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I just can't stay at meetings - valium doesn't help.
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I drank again in February after 3 and-a-half years due to my panic attacks. I managed to get back to a few meetings but wasn't enjoying them, still I made myself show up. A Consultant psychiatrist put me on an anti-depressant meant to help with panic disorder, but initially - I've been on it 4 and-a-hal...
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Pain Pills and Sobriety
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Over the years I've seen several people go through an accident, injury or surgery while sober, only to become addicted to pain pills in the process which led to a relapse on alcohol. So here I am getting older, generally in good health except for being diabetic, and I get hit with back to back things th...
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Did anyone ever have a bender like this one?
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http://www.theonion.com/articles/man-wakes-up-from-bender-with-financial-problems-s,19858/?utm_source=recentnews-- Edited by turninggrey on Wednesday 6th of April 2011 08:35:45 PM
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Parents went to first Alanon meeting last night!
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Hi all, I just have to share my joy that I finally convinced my parents to go to their first AlAnon meeting last night! I'm an only child, which I think has impeded their ability to draw boundaries about my alcoholism, even though I'm 36 and live 400 miles away -- they try to make it THEIR problem, rather th...
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NYC-28 years and four days
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Went to "Living Now" on St. Mark's Place (old stomping grounds-East Village). This meeting has been running continuously for 40-some odd years, I think. My sister presented me with my 28th medallion (they don't normally do chips, so the crowd enjoyed the surprize as much as I did)...
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Daily Reflections ~ Freedom From King Alcohol & 24hrs a Day
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. . . let us not suppose even for an instant that we are not under constraint. . . . Our former tyrant, King Alcohol, always stands ready again to clutch us to him. Therefore, freedom from alcohol is the great must that has to be achieved, else we go mad or die. As Bill Sees It, p. 134 When drinking, I lived in s...
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AA / FreeLife Church Group
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After several visits, I have began attending the FreeLife meetings at church. They are very similar to AA, but with more emphasis on Christ and the overall groups meeting encompasses alcoholic, narcotics, divorce, etc. We break off an focus on our addiction/problem. I have what essentially is...
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The Crux of My Alcoholism
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The Story & Struggle of Me.. Ever since I was a little child I never knew who I was. I felt special, connected, different, lost. I have been & so often felt confused. I thought something brilliant might happen with me as I grew & mastered this world. As it happened, this didn't happen & i...
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The Dreaded ((((((((((( 5 year mark ))))))))))))
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I've seen it shared before on this board in a post by another member that at about the five year point in a members sobriety things "can" get hellish and turbulent emotionally. I've also heard Bob Earl of whom I am a great fan, say once before in one of his recorded talks ( not the about you...
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God Calling - Deliverance
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"Be calm, be true, be quiet. I watch over you. Rest in My love. Joy in the very beauty of holiness. You are Mine. Deliverance is here for you, but thankfulness and joy open the gates. Try in all things to be very glad, very happy, very thankful. It is not to quiet resignation I give My blessings,...
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So far So Good
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Got a call from my ex wife wanting to know who was in the car wiith me. I declined to answer beyond not your concern. Then she had a tirade of abuse about me seeing some other woman. I cut her off. Turned the phone off. Unplugged the landline. After a bit when I was on my own I turned the mobile back on and liste...
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It's a Process Not An Event
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Most of us have heard this in AA meetings. I heard it fairly early on, and for some reason I got it. You hear the same idea expressed many different ways, i.e. "simple pleasures" and all that, but this particular wording sunk in to me. LinBaba mentions it in his post, i.e. happiness lies in...
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Spiritual Maturity
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One of my favorite all time books about a spiritual path is "A Path With Heart" by Jack Kornfield, he was a college student in the sixties who came from a "good family" his father was a biophysicist who developed artificial hearts and artificial lungs, worked on the space progra...
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Daily Reflections ~ An Inside Look & 24hrs a Day
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We want to find exactly how, when, and where our natural desires have warped us. We wish to look squarely at the unhappiness this has caused others and ourselves. By discovering what our emotional deformities are, we can move toward their correction TWELVE STEPS AND TWELVE TRADITIONS, p.43 Today I a...
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Article in New York Times this morning
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Hi, Someone just called me and said there was an editorial on AA, in this mornings paper, that AA has become the top organization as far as the people being the most intelligent, even used the words Brillant, and gifted, and creative people ever to gather in one organization. Also went on to say that...
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Daily Reflections ~ A Lifetime Process & 24hrs a Day
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We were having trouble with personal relationships, we couldnt control our emotional natures, we were a prey to misery and depression, we couldnt make a living, we had a feeling of uselessness, we were full of fear, we were unhappy, we couldnt seem to be of real help to other people. . . . ALCOHOLICS ANO...
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I forgot that today is 2 years for me!
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It dawned on me this evening at my HG meeting (sponsor pointed it out) that today, April 4, 2009 makes it 2 years of soberiety. I'm grateful to the fellowship and all the support I've recieved from friends (including you all here) to help me achieve it. Here's a bit of irony for you... I'm sitting here a...
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Craig Ferguson - Sober Comedian
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10 years
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10 years yesterday without drinking been sober about 7 of those,right now i`m not sober in the least,i`m not drinking but i`m as far from sober as a person can be without adding alcohol. i don`t feel the need for drink anymore...but i do need sobriety ,life sucks without sobriety what really sucks is...
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Gratitude
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On Friday I spoke to my wife face to face for the first time in several months. It was nice. Nothing earth shattering but just a nice pleasant conversation after months of anger and misunderstandings. On Tuesday I dropped off the kids and saw her again. This time we laughed and joked, we spoke for a long t...
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R.I.D.
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Used a little bit of my left over sarcasm the other day when the definition of R.I.D. was asked for and said, for me, "Rice Is Done"...let's eat!! Actually it's not the rice that is done at the moment but me...I'm toast regarding patience, tolerance, not reacting, expectations (reasona...
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God Calling - April 5
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"Rest in Me. Seek this evening time just to be with Me. Do not feel you have failed if sometmes I ask you only to rest together in My presence. I am with you... not only at these times, at all times. Feel conscious of My presence. Earth has no greater joy than that."
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A simple "CoDA" Thank you
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Hello Everyone, As the founder and webmaster of Miracles In Progress I want to extent a personal "Thank You" to each of you for valuing and utilizing the CoDA portion of our site. As we grow in our recoveries from alcoholism, addiction, or being a family member of a loved one who suffers from this di...
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my head tells me lies.
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I'm really good at building up fantasy worlds im my head. Then I start to confuse the fantasies with reality until I convince myself that the fantasy is the reality. Then when I see the true reality I'm hurt that the reality doesn't match the fantasy. There won't be a happy ever after. All I have is what Go...
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post-newcomer sobriety...
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It is interesting what freedom and choices there are in life now that I am not a slave to alcohol. For about a year and a half I would say, I was building a foundation to just resist alcohol....I had major shifts in my thinking and a really painful period of growth. I stuck it out. Where does that leave me...
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Remaining Humble.especially when you think you got it!!!
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Morning and welcome to another blessed day of life! During my morning reflections,I remembered back to a really pertinent moment of humility and the lesson of remaining humble.I wanted to share this with you. I remember back to my first round of Steps 6&7 and how I was feeling and what was reveale...
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God Calling - Divine Efficiency
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"I am all powerful and all knowing, and I have all your affairs in My hands. Divine efficiency, as well as divine power is being brought to bear on them. The kingdom of heaven can only be preached by those who have learned to prize the authority of its kingdom. A many-sided training My apostles ne...
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Been To The Doctor Again
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Hi Have not been on much due to College Classes and Health Issues. Well the health has taken another turn--I am now doing physical therapy for water on my right knee, plus now have to use a Cane. I do not recall in any earlier post if I had said anything about being a Type 2 Diabetic since Feb 4 which was broug...
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While I'm at it I thought I might as well stop smoking
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Although I'm booked at the stop smoking clinic tomorrow, as I ran out of tobacco at 0830 today, I'm going to stop smoking as of now. One day at a time, one hour at a time, one cigarette at a time. I've been a non smoker for exactly 60 minutes now. It's not for health reasons, it's not becuase my breath and clot...
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Blessings of another day of "LIFE"
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Morning, just wanted to wish all newcomers welcome and say hey to all here. Been fast and furious in my part of the planet so havent been on much lately,but do hold all in prayer and support. STOP!!! be grateful for this day of life and remember not to forskae in the dark what your own concept of your Hi...
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God Calling - The Priceless Blessing
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"I am here. Here as truly as I was with My disciples of old. Here to help and bless you. Here to company with you. Do you know, even yet, that this is the priceless blessing of your life? I forgive you, as you have prayed Me to, for all neglects of My commands, but start anew from today. Study My wor...
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Daily Reflections ~ Looking Within & 24hrs a Day
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A.A. Made a searching and fearless moral inventory of ourselves. TWELVE STEPS AND TWELVE TRADITIONS, p. 42 Step Four is the vigorous and painstaking effort to discover what the liabilities in each of us have been, and are. I want to find exactly how, when, and where my natural desires have warped me....
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Life's going at life's proper pace today.
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It ain't rushing and pushing me and it ain't idling along and having me waste time. Life just seems to be going at the proper pace - erm, I think that means that maybe I'm fitting myself to today's circumstances? It's been a beautiful day even though i spent the bulk of it in the office and I'm still here. t...
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God Calling - Love's Offering
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"I judge not by outward appearances. I judge the heart, and I see in your heart one single desire: to do My will. The simplest offering by a child with the one desire to show you love, is it not more loved by you than the offerings of those who love you not? So, though you may feel that your work has be...
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called the cops
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Hi Everyone. I called the cops on my son the other day as his boss told me he was worried about his life he looked so bad. He's had so many run ins with the police -2 probation breaches. They have him in jail - he doesn't know it was me who turned him in. He's 24. Court appearnace tommorow. I feel torn but...
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