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spiritual growth
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Hi, i am rajeev an alcoholic, as i did 1-9 steps as in big book of aa now to do 10, 11, 12 i want some suggestions, coz now no obssesion to drink but my biggest blocks are as am married i have sex relation with a widow, i masterbuate daily, smoke regulaly, tape 2 diabetic, no exercises poor life style, wastes t...
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My first 24 hours without alcohol
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I just binged drank for four days straight and made a big fool of myself in front of new friends. It made me really reevaluate my reltionship with alcohol. I stopped drinking this morning and now am experiencing some alarming side effects. I'm shaky and exhausted but can't fall asleep. I keep sufferi...
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Just checking in
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Hi all, Haven't been posting recently as I just don't seem to have enough hours in the day now. That life thing that I'd been avoiding for 15 years was still out there only this time around it's a great place to be so I'm having a bit of an explore and I'm getting reacquainted with the world. I'm a little over...
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What other people think about me
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...is none of my business. Of course I know this saying like the back of my hand. Along with..."Don't allow others to live in your head rent free." My problem is that some AA lessons are easier for me than others. I think I have a good AA foundation. I have tried to work the steps to the best o...
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pinkchip
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warning signs.
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here i go again x my daughter marriage is going through a very bad patch and dhe is drinkinking a couple glasses of wine slowely.she says she says to herseil"i am drinking this because i like it not because i need it!"told her her higher power is warning her RIGHT?
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ANGELINA
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Methods of Remembrence & Resilience
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Hello everyone, This will be my first time posting on these forums. I am in recovery myself, sober for 3 years and 356 days now. What brings me to join a forum such as this one are several different things. 1) I am a full-time student and time is hard to come by,2) I live in a small town and good meetings are ev...
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Example of My (Non-God) Higher Power Working For Me
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I just thought I'd post because it often comes up on this board that newcomers aren't sure what to do with the "Higher Power" idea if they don't believe in a god or gods. I often point out that I'm an atheist and my HP is the network of people, institutions, and beliefs that help support me and po...
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The fine line between attraction and promotion...
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Hi there! I was hoping that I could get a little feedback on something, so here's my situation... Every time I go to and from a certain meeting I always pass by a homeless man who is always drunk but is very nice and always waves at me as I ride past him on my bike. Tonight I saw him asleep at the bus stop and sinc...
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PhillyAnonymous
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Newcomers Talking
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I love to listen to newcomers, at least those that are willing to share. It brings me back to what it was like. The anger, pain, bewilderment - or just being overwhelmed with simple day to day problems that have piled up out of control. I know it all too well. A lot of newcomers are told to sit down and sh...
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Back to the Mountains
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Another trip to the Blue Ridge to work on my house. Likely be out of range of the interwebs. PM Danielle or John with concerns. See you on thursday my brothers and sisters.
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Back at it!
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Morning and blessings of this day! Welcome newcomers and those been around for few cups of coffee. Today I get back to work after 17 days vacation,in Florida,at the Fair,much travel and family contact,truly a blessing and many plans for our future move to Florida in 10 months are coming to fruition(i...
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mikef
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I stopped in time!
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Today is my eldest born birthday. She is 29. I am 23 in AA. The best sober years in recovery have been spent with them. I thank God that He stopped me in time & I did not wreck their lives as well. All glory & honour to my Lord & Saviour Jesus Christ for being in her life & guiding her. Without G...
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gonee
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What is the fourth diminsion
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I am sad over a relationship in AA, and it hurts and my stomach is sick and I would usually go get a drink, but I have no desire to do that. I know the worst is that. Just wish, I could be loved by this man, or just loved. I havent had a relationship in 9 years and I feel like a kid and a failure
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Nine days sober and hungry as can be
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As my alcoholism got worse and worse my appetite diminished. I wanted to eat, and was not avoiding it just to drink, but nothing sounded good. It really was a chore to eat. I've only been sober for nine days now but my appetite is coming back in full force. This also happened about three weeks ago befo...
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Cliodude
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A new heart.
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My wife was very ill last night. I stayed up praying for her & seeing to her needs. I kept monotoring her breathing, nebulising & bringing medication for her until she fell asleep. A far cry from my drinking days. I would be passed out, never knew how my kids were. Today I can be a good father &...
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Sponsor Trust Problem
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I am Lance and I am an alcohlic!I need to figure something out and I didn't want to do it with any of the groups that I am a members of because I don't want to give anyone a bias opinion about my sponsor who I believe can help others. He is a great sponsor but he messed up in my personal situation.I just asked h...
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Lance Romance
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Daily Reflections ~ Recovery by Proxy? & 24hrs a Day
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They [the Promises] will always materialise if we work for them. ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS, p.84 Sometimes I think: "Making these amends is going too far! No one should have to humble himself like that!" However, it is this very humbling of myself that brings me that much closer to the sunligh...
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No one knows but my life is falling apart...I drank again tonight and I don't know what I said to my husband but it wasn't nice and he went to bed made at me so lost right now.
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butterfly
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I Am Proof That This Program Works
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Hi Everyone, I had a pretty devastating day at work yesterday. To make a very long story short, I had an opportunity to speak in a conference as part of my job. This is something that I have worked very hard for - I went back to school to get my masters and to bust my ass trying to become more knowledgable in my...
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Newcomer
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Worked with a newcomer today, 63 years old shaking & withdrawing badly. I went with him to a meeting. After the meeting I saw a new man. He went to the secretary, picked up the venue list & literature. He told me I am now ready to start a new life in AA. The AA book says that we do not want to miss this &a...
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why is this so hard...
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i feel completely lost right now...if i could kick my cocaine habit why am i having so much trouble with alcohol. i am going through withdrawl right now and i feel like i don't have the strength to make it throught this. any words of wisdow for me would be greatly appreciated.
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Speaking at Tricities conference in Va. 10/21
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Just in case there are any MIPer's in the state of Virginia I thought I would post this. I will be the opening speaker for the Tri-City Area Conference at 6pm on Friday, October 21st at 6pm. I antisipate going with the theme of the conference which is called "Keep It Simple". However, it will be fitted i...
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John
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Eight days sober
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I haven't had a drink in eight days and I feeling much better. I've got some bad blood tests though and I am just hoping for the best. Bilirubin is high; spleen is inlarged, enzymes are high. Anyone have experience with liver regeneration? Even if I never have another drop of alcohol again, can I sti...
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Cliodude
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simple, not easy
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Another day may be another story, but for today I am astonished at the simplicity of maintaining sobriety by not taking a drink. I am grateful for those days--which are probably about 90% of all my days for the past two decades--during which it actually seems easy. During those times when it is not so e...
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Mormons are Alcoholics too!
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Mormons, we truly are no different than any of the christian community. Our beliefs are exactly the same as all the rest of the christian community out there-Jesus is our savoir too. We do have a bit more (not less) written doctrine and in it we note "do not drink" and "do not smoke"...
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Lance Romance
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What ever happened to the good old 12 step call?
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In my home town we have a lot of trouble getting members to go on 12 step calls. The mantra is "get yourself to a meeting near you" and I notice the same advice is frequently given on this forum. It's scary. Advising people in withdrawals, full of fear, to just front up to a room full of happy stra...
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God Calling ~ Walk in My Love
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"A consciousness of My presence as LOVE makes all life different. The consciousness of Me means the opening of your whole nature to Me, and that brings relief. Relief brings peace. Peace brings joy. Beyond all words is My love and care for you. Rejoice in it. Walk in My love. There is a sprin...
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Daily Reflections ~ "We Asked His Protection" & 24hrs a Day
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We asked His protection & care with complete abandon. ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS, p. 59 I could not manage my life alone. I had tried that road & failed. My "ultimate sin" dragged me down to the lowest level I have ever reached &, unable to function, I accepted the fact that I needed h...
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I am in charge of the action, but God is in charge of the results
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Just a quick post to let all my MIP friends know what is happening to me. I went to my urologist yesterday for a followup on tests that were done to determine the cause of kidney pain I have been experiencing . I received some very unexpected results. My left kidney has a stone, is atrophied and is not funct...
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getting started
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I'm having a hard time at the moment because I know that I have a drinking problem, and logically I know I need to quit, but by the time 4 pm rolls around my thinking has changed to how much I don't want to quit and I end up drinking again. I'm wondering how others have been able to move past this or do you just r...
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Rock on Salt Lake!
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I am traveling over the long weekend with my partner. He is in a convention while I have lots of free time here in Salt Lake City. As my sponsor suggested, and as I learned to do whenever going away, I checked for meetings here upon getting situated. I was like "there probably wont be any meetings...
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pinkchip
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Daily Reflections ~ Emotional Balance & 24hrs a Day
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Made direct amends to such people wherever possible . . . TWELVE STEPS AND TWELVE TRADITIONS, p.83 When I survey my drinking days, I recall many people whom my life touched casually, but whose days I troubled through my anger & sarcasm. These people are untraceable, & direct amends to them ar...
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God Calling ~ Everlasting Arms
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"Arms, sheltering arms, express the loving tenderness of (your Father) in heaven. Man, in his trouble and difficulty, needs nothing so much as a refuge, a place where none and nothing can touch him. Say to yourself, "He is my refuge." Say it until its truth sinks into your very soul...
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God Calling ~ Drop Those Burdens
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Look to Me for all. Rely on Me for all. Drop those burdens, and then, singing and free, you can go on your way rejoicing. Encumbered with them you will fall. Drop them at My feet, knowing surely that I will lift them and deal with each one as is truly best. 365 One-minute Meditations from God Calling...
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Sucker for Bad Sponsors
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Urghhhh, are you kidding me with the sponsor thing again??? I have been sober for 3 1/2 weeks for the umpteenth time in maybe 6 years. My relapses have never been related in any way to bad sponsorship but let's put it this way, I've never had been able to pick out healthy relationships and it's no differ...
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Life can only be understood backwards, but it must be lived forward.
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Today's thought from Hazelden is: Life can only be understood backwards, but it must be lived forward. --Soren Kierkegaard Once, in a small village, there was a huge fire. The blaze spread and several homes and businesses were burned to the ground. After a long while, the fire was brought under contr...
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God is either EVERYTHING or He is nothing
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My whole life depends on God being everything. Nothing mmakes much sense in my life except chaos, drama, fear ect... Now that I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that way of life doesn't work, and I must learn to live life on a spiritual basis, I feel lost most of the time. The very only thought that gives me an...
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binge drinking and newcomer
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ive just started going to aa after not drinking now for 10 days.it took a lot of willpower to force myself to go but i owed myself something. i never thought myself as an alcoholic as i binge drink on weekends sporting events concerts etc, ive been doing this every weekend since 16 and im now 42, my whole so...
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Newbie here!
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I am new to this, but have been searching websites to find a good support group to stop drinking. I currently drink about a fifth of vodka every day and I need to quit, I have gained weight, my AST/ALT is elevated at 67 and I'm scared if I do not quit, I will die. I am 32 years old and have a 5 year old son and I wa...
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SOS
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Well...I made it 5 days. Then I came home from work and saw a big bottle of Jack Daniels that my husband bought sitting on the kitchen counter. I held off for a few hours and then I said to myself I would just drink untill I got a buzz. Instead I dindn't stop drinking until I passed out on the couch. I am sure ...
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The 3 step decision.
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The decision that I made in step 3. Sometimes I forget about that decision, but God does not. He engineers circumstances & situations so that I come back to that decision. All I have to do is submit again, but my stubborn will does not. What we call bad things happening to us is just God with a gentle re...
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Daily Reflections ~ Reconstruction & 24hrs a Day
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Yes, there is a long period of reconstruction ahead.. ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS, p83 The reconstruction of my life is the prime goal in my recovery as I avoid taking that first drink, one day at a time. The task is most successfully accomplished by working the steps of our fellowship. The spiritual life is...
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Wakeboarding
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So. The summer starts early in South Carolina, and the schedule is work, wakeboard, work, wakeboard, call in sick to work, keep wakeboarding. The summer is now over because real life says I need to pay attention to work. Staying busy sure keeps your mind off booze. I just really have not had a desire f...
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im going to try to quit today
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im a firstime poster so be easy on me, the reason's i drink are for alot of reason's ive lost alot i guess i feel like talking to someone?
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AA for me.
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One of the most blessed things in my life, is that every single day of my life, my most cherished thought is AA. My mind is either thinking about which meeting I am going to attend or some newcomer that I am sponsoring. I thank God for instilling this in me. It's never dulled in the past 23 years. It fascinat...
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Started Detox yesterday
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So I've been a daily drinker forth past few years only to see the amount increase over time. I have had side effects I just considered a minor hang over. After a binge last weekend, the hangover symptoms became full blown withdrawl symptoms. For the past week I have been able to go four hours without a dri...
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do i need aa?
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tonight was my fifth meeting in a week and it was a steps meeting. i felt uncomfortable tonight with the people, especially a women who started going on you need a sponser and you should ask that bloke who had shared his story earlier. i bit my tongue and did not say owt but i was fuming inside. i dont need al...
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Fitting real tragedy into a recovery-minded worldview
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I posted recently about how grateful I am that my new mindset in recovery lets me take minor life disappointments in stride and recognize that I am not omniscient enough to see the big picture -- not getting what I want at this moment might be the best thing in the long run, even if I can't see why right now....
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72 days sober and I used.
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While you will all probably kick me out of the AA board and tell me to go to the NA board, I used. I have TMJ and they prescribed Fioricet for the pain (a mild narcotic). I knew it was wrong and I asked for it anyway (DON'T STOP READING JUST BECAUSE I SAID NARCOTIC). I did it for the same reasons I drank alcoh...
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oh man you couldn't make this up.
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So Monday last week, travelled up to Aberdeen via 5 sites in the kirkcaldy area. Tuesday thruough friday all very productive days, convention saturday and sunday morning. Didn't get any fishing in but made friends with a couple of lads sleeping on the streets, so in exchange for a bit of chat and a few b...
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