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we are not saints....
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If even the best of us on our best day had our character defects tattoed on our forehead we might pull our cap down to hide it. - something a longtimer said in a meeting tonight.
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The 10th step...
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Continued to take personal inventory and when we were wrong promptly admitted it. See I know it. I also know how to do it. I have a loving, caring wife who doesn't refrain from giving me suggestions about self care. A couple of weeks ago I blinded myself in my right eye. I wasn't wearing safety glass...
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another first timer
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I woke up this morning and learned that I texted to my brother and posted some things online last night after I had blacked out that were not nice, so here I am! I've known I have been an alcoholic for several years and have tried many times to stop unsuccessfully. I'm tearing up as I type this because it h...
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Today I am responsible for my sobriety.
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Today I have choices and I choose to work at staying sober. I work at this not to be unhappy and sad. I work at this to be happy and fee.~*~A.A. Thoughts For The Day~*~^*^*^*^*^(\ ~~ /) ( \ (AA)/ )(_ /AA\ _) /AA\^*^*^*^*^Arrogance "I am a firm believer in bothguidance and prayer....
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It's one of those days...
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...when I can hardly recall what the past was like. Intellectually I can recount the horror story in intricate detail but, today, there is no emotional memory being dredged up. Just the facts, m'am, just the facts. Rather, gratitude, hope and serenity are what I am feeling. I love days like this!!! S...
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Daily Reflections ~ Healing Heart and Mind & 24hrs a Day
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Admitted to God, to ourselves, and to another human being the exact nature of our wrongs. TWELVE STEPS AND TWELVE TRADITIONS, p. 55 Since it is true that God comes to me through people, I can see that by keeping people at a distance I also keep God at a distance. God is nearer to me than I think and I can exp...
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Those little old ladies.
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They look at you with their hands on their cheeks, jaw dropped just a bit... as you go through the check out line with 2 little kids, 4 bottles of wine, and a box of macaroni and cheese. But my wine and cheese are organic... that proves I care about us right? I'll wait in the parking lot for her to come out, so...
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Memories
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Since starting to read the pages Polly suggested, memories are flooding my head like a movie reel when I go to bed. Some of them really jolt me, like when we were at the local RSL club. I was about 12, running around with friends outside and around the pokie machines. Mum was dancing with this older man...
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Tracey C
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Hi :)
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My cousin called. She's graduating college in two weeks. She lives with her boyfriend of 4 years. She relapsed last year. She feels the anymosity our parents( aunts and uncles) are tearing our family apart. Which is true. But she called me and asked if I was still in the program, and I said yes. And so she...
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"Socially Acceptable Alcoholic"?
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http://www.sadanduseless.com/2011/08/how-to-properly-hide-booze-in-your-facebook-pictures/
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God Calling - Share with Me
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"I am the same yesterday, today, and forever. Joy in Me, trust in Me, share all life with Me, see Me in everything, rejoice in Me. Share all with Me as a child shares his pains and cuts and griefs and newfound treasures and joys and little work with his mother. And give Me the joy of sharing all with yo...
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You know what is amazing...
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...that one person who says that one thing to me. And that one thing is what touches my soul. In my newness and in the handful of meetings I've been to (I've just passed the point where I can no longer count the number of meetings on my fingers and toes), I'm amazed when the person I would have avoided in my o...
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The girl who melted my heart...Miss Blue
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To my favorite girl, Miss blue.One of my earliest recollections of sobriety came from the most heavenly of sources, my friend Miss Blue. There was just something about her, maybe it was her delicate nature or something like that, but something was different for sure. She had this smile that stretche...
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Mr_David
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Try Not To Forget
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One of my sponcees lost his father to cancer last night. Fortunately, he's got almost 5 years in and a solid program so he should be OK. I lost my mother to that in 1996. I think I had 3 weeks under my belt. Everyone was complimenting me on how well I was handling it. But I wasn't handling it at all. I was just wa...
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Transition time
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A northeastern upstate New Yorker to a just north of Miami Florida in Pompano, the transition begins.It always begins with prayer,gratitude and an awareness of true blessings that LIFE free from the devastation of addiction brings.As long as I don't pick up I have a chance of many dreams to pursue...
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Happy 31st Bio Birthday, SoberSteve!
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I hope you're having a beautiful day enjoying you & your sobriety, brother! God bless you ;) Danielle x
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Whiney little poo
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I'm carrying my husbands midnight snack dish to the sink this morning, and I stop 4 or 6 times to stoop and pick up toys scattered down the hall, and a few that have trickled down the stairs. The same dish he walked past this morning, and the same toys he walked around. Am I just the maid? My whole inside sw...
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Need Help/Advice
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Hi, I have been sober for 7 months. About a month ago I finished an outpatient rehab. It was a lifesaving program. I have been sick for 10 years with Fibromyalgia. I am having a very hard time physically and connot get out to meetings. I have been doing some online but keep hearing I need to get out to meeti...
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Pages 62 - 68 of Big Book
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Hi, I'm not sure who posted about their sponsor, telling them to read these pages daily, but I am holding them responsible for taking the scales off my eyes. I read those pages at least 5 times yesterday, whenever I felt bothered about something. Then last night I was up from about 1-3.00am going throu...
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It is a simple program
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Go to a meeting. Say what is in my heart and soul, even when it means my voice cracks and tears flow. Get hugs. Listen to the guidance. Feel better. Rinse. Repeat.
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God Calling - Kill Self Now
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"Self dethroned - that is the lesson, but in its place put love for Me, knowledge of Me. Cease trying to forgive those who fretted or wronged you. It is a mistake to think about it. Aim at killing the self now, in your daily life, and then you will find there is nothing that even remembers injury, be...
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I think I found a higher power loophole for myself!
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I refuse to believe in any man made definition of god, heaven, hell or afterlife. In fact I've searched and found them all to be laughably rediculous. As you can imagine this has made acceptance of the Alcoholics Anonymous program somewhat difficult...impossible actually...but last night lying i...
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Fortune Cookie
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Earlier tonight we had fortune cookies with dinner. I saved mine until later. When the men got home from their meeting, one of them was telling me about an amends he had made at the meeting. The day before he had picked up his nine-month coin and another fellow who was his rival in a romantic relationship...
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I seriously considered telling you that I was dead
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Yeah, that's right. I was going to come on and pose as my girlfriend who was honoring a request left in my suicide letter for her to log in to my account here and tell you goodbye and that I wished you all well and hoped that my horrible end somehow compelled you to stay sober.
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Meditation
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Thought I'ld share this as it struck a chord with me today. Today I Reaffirm My Commitment To Recovery Today I commit myself to my most important project-My Recovery. My recovery, this wonderful broadening of potential, deserves my devotion, my time and my energy. I give full attention to my recove...
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Tracey C
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My alcoholism today.
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I didn't think about it too much today. It was kind of nice to not think about it for a bit. I knew I would think about it again, but I've been thinking of it for most of my day, every day, for a month now! A break was nice. It seemed okay to be just Natasha for the day, and not Natasha the alcholic. I'm in a ga...
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justadrunk
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An Elephant Story
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I just love animal stories. Most people know I work in a recovery house. I got a brochure today for recovery oriented DVDs from some place in Texas. Earnie Larsen, John Bradshaw, the kind of stuff they swear we watched in 28-day programs but none of us can remember seeing. Anyway, there was one movie - t...
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Brain not switching off!
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Not a cloud in the sky. Recovery is good. Steps working well. No resentments. But I cannot switch my brain off. Therefore I cannot sleep. Anyone experience this? -- Edited by gonee on Sunday 29th of April 2012 09:34:33 PM
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Lets remember Ebby.
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I never forget Ebby because to me Ebby was the start .I always keep in the front of my Big Book a page from our monthly Share Mag. Like your greapvine. A letter from America. Why Ebby is my HERO. And I feel compelled to share it always. http://www.barefootsworld.net/aaebbyt.html God bless both Ebby...
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Polly
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Confused today.
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I went to the large meeting last night that people offer to sponsor at. The sponsor I had that stopped answering my calls was there, this is the first time I've seen him. After the meeting, he seemed to be ignoring me, so I went up to say hi and tell him I had 30 days, and part of that was thanks to him. He sho...
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The Great Paradox
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These legacies of suffering and of recovery are easily passed among alcoholics, one to the other. This is our gift from God, and its bestowal upon others like us is the one aim that today animates A.A.'s all around the globe. TWELVE STEPS AND TWELVE TRADITIONS, p. 151 The great paradox of A.A. is that I...
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Coolest thing...
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...coming home from a meeting and feeling connected to something greater than myself. ...feeling a sense of calm rather than complete panic. ...meeting two people who know me and I know them before we even know each others' stories. I had never met either woman before, but instantly felt I knew them....
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God's got the trouble shovel out again.
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OK, so here's what's going well. Got a new job Have handed over my old responsibilities to the guy who's doing my old job (actually split it between 5 other guys.) Running up on two new projects. My house is almost packed up for a move Friends are waiting to help Where's the trouble then? Landlady of the ne...
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Sick and loving it
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Out of no where yesterday I got ridiculously sick. I threw up in a parking garage and continiued to do so all night long. Sweating, tossing and turning all night. Now I know to most of you this would be seemingly terrible I'm psyched that this is not drug/ alcohol induced. I'm becoming a "normal&qu...
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I'm a Member
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hello lovely people,
Just wanted to stop by and report that I have officially joined an AA group inn my city - and today I am celebrating 12 days sober. This Sunday it will be 2 weeks sober - I can't tell you how good it feels to keep accumulating those 24 hours'
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Aspgrl
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Oh how much I hate baseball season...
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I love baseball and everything associated with it, the only problem is as any other AA/ baseball fan knows, is that a nice cold beer goes best whether at home or at the park. This being my 63rd day in recovery it's very hard to seperate the two and it bums me out that until I can accept that i don't need one dri...
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A Pebble in the Water Makes an Effect
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I'm a writer. Stories pour from my mind as fast as I pour wine into my glass. Without it, I'm stoic. Nothing. What do I do? I'm free when I write. I love myself when I can finally speak, express the thoughts that spin in the back of my mind every minute of every day. Why is it so controlled by drink? Whe...
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In Memory of
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I was just thinking of some things my sponsor said to me way back when. I think he was a mathematician because he was always adding and subtracting things from my life when he talked. I was dating a woman who drank and she didn't understand the whole total abstinence thing and to make a long story short I wa...
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Robin W on alcoholism
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Hi all -- can't believe how long it's been since I've been on here. Can never seem to use the computer now that my son has discovered video games. ;) Great to be sober and see lots of new folks on here...gotta love the online fellowship. Anyway, have been able to have to the computer to myself (he and his mo...
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Happy to have found this board
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I have relapsed so many times out of fear and anxiety from going to meetings and dealing with people face to face. I've always had bad social anxiety but it got even worse with using/drinking. I started going to this one meeting every week, but I know that's not enough and I'm very uncomfortable speakin...
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Minding my own business
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I was walking by a hospital the other day and I could hear the patients shouting 13 13 13 13 13. The fence was too high to see over so I peeked though a crack in the fence. Then someone poked me in the eye and they all started shouting 14, 14, 14, 14, This really amused me from another site and it sure lets me kno...
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Solution
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Service work kept me high and dry today. I'm getting all tangled up in AA now. My son will talk to himself sometimes, when he's trying to find courage. He's very afraid of heights. So afraid that even if I just lift him up too high, he gets very scared. A bird built a nest in our wreath out front, and the...
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My sponsor quit answering my calls.
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I'm not sure what I did, or didn't do... but I haven't been able to get ahold of my sponsor for several days, and I'm not sure if that means I'm "fired" and I'm just suppose to quit calling? Is that what happens if someone doesn't want to work with you anymore? I only had this sponsor for a coupl...
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The day i surrendered...
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I just read, "I just need to "say" it", a post here on the board. It reminded me of spining the wheel, the marble going around and around.. and every time it seemed to land on the good "Party" stuff. Shooting pool, drag racing, disco dancing (yah, I'm old lol), loud music, booties shakin', wild cars, fa...
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Long Week
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About a week ago, I had a day from hell. One of the guys I do a group thing with relapsed and beat a guy to death. So he's up on murder charges. There but for the grace of God go I. One of my sponcees told me his father was on life support, dying of cancer. Its too bad; he's actually a good man. I painted myself int...
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AA Thoughts for today.
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Meditation "Perhaps one of the greatest rewards of meditation and prayer is the sense of belonging that comes to us. We no longer live in a completely hostile world. We are no longer lost and frightened and purposeless. We know that God lovingly watches over us. We know that when we turn to Him, a...
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The History Of AA in England.
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Hope some may find this interesting. I was giving it a little study tonight as I often do, just like the Big Book, so very much to take in and its a life long understanding and learning. So no rush. Also under study for me is the European structure and hand book full of interesting info. I live and learn :} ...
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Heading out in a minute!
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Stoppin in to say hey and hoping all are workin in the solution guided by the God of your own understanding.IF NOT! WELCOME, our program offers a new way of life practised by the application of spiritual principles in all affairs of your actions and deeds.Guided by your Higher Power "life"...
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God Calling - I Make the Opportunities
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"Never doubt. Have no fear. Watch the faintest tremor of fear, and stop all work, everything, and rest before Me until you are joyful and strong again. Deal in the same way with all tired feelings. Times of withdrawal for rest always precede fresh miracle-working. My work in the world has bee...
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Feeling good - thinking of drinking again.
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When I came to AA around the 1st of the year, I felt nothing but the rawness of my open wounds for the first week or so, and was overwhelmingly grateful to be sober... floating in the clouds. I started going to less meetings after the first week, because I was SO HAPPY, and seemingly "not that bad&qu...
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