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Bad News
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I got some very bad news today; a 46 year old friend of mine when into the ER Tues for back pain. She has cancer in her spine, it has spread everywhere. I want a drink so fucking bad I am shaking. My mouth is literally watering when I think about it. I thought that was just an expression. I didn't know it a...
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Obsession With Trust
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I used to be obsessed with trust. Seems like people were always letting me down, and I was always seeking someone totally trustworthy. Whenever I trusted I got hurt. If I didn't trust, I lived a life of paranoid existence, always believing everyone was out to get me. It was sort of like alcohol... a...
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Another deleted post.
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Grateful to be sober today. -- Edited by StPeteDean on Thursday 25th of October 2012 05:17:09 PM
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ISMS
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When I first came to AA, I thought discussion of "Ism's" was about the stupidest and cheesiest things I'd heard. I thought it was some made up bullcrap from people who had gotten sober but were still looking for more stuff to harp on and "self-improve" on. I really could not gra...
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HP is having a laugh
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This week I have two papers to write. One for english and one for nutrition. Guess what the topic for both papers are? Alcoholism. Yep. And guess where I got my thesis statement? A sentence I pulled from the post about ruhig's death. Oh the hue manatee!!!
My only stuggle here will be 1. My English paper...
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Is it really an issue?
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So I'm struggling to figure out if my drinking is an issue. I've been doing my little test this week and I don't know what I'm proving. I feel guilty because during my "experiment" I am seeing that I am much happier under the influence than not. I haven't been irritable, I haven't been edgy. I a...
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Wow, that was quick.....
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My mood is about 80% better. Quick background: Broken leg, bone through skin, surgery, a bunch of plates and screws, oxycodone situation (solved), infection from wound, antibiotic reaction (Levofloxacin, Levaquin read about these before you take them) (pretty much solved) and as of today, I am...
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'for Neo' ... 'Inner Peace'
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I'm passing this on because it worked for me today. A Dr. on TV said to have inner peace we should always finish things we start & we all could use more calm in our lives. I looked around my house to find things I'd started & hadn't finished, so I finished off a bottle of Merlot, a bottle of Cha...
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Hi. First time here...
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My sponser recommended I join this site. I can't attend meetings regularly as I am 'mostly' a single dad. My wife who is just a few weeks sober and back in AA has recently left me. I am just 2 weeks sober as well. I didn't think I was diseased for the longest time, but bad drinking habbits got worse. I'd...
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I asked for it and when I awoke I awoke with it....
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Aloha Family...I just had a gratitude hit. I have soooo much to be grateful for in sober recovery...there was soooo much to learn and I didn't know if I'd get it or have the time remaining to even hope for it. The very first thing I had to get which is in the BB was the absense of fear. I was at that time so...
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Today's Gift 10-24
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I wish I hadn't lost track of the guys I was stationed with. I kick myself for that. --Tom Harding We all have regrets, don't we? Some of us left jobs or spouses or neighborhoods only to wish we hadn't. Perhaps we closed the door on our family of origin and then felt grief when parents or siblings died. More...
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Self Sabotage
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After 20 years of research I have concluded that I want what you have. I know what it takes to get what you have but I always figured I'd do it my way. That usually consists of doing everything but THAT. "That" can be anything from calling a sponsor to getting to the next meeting. I can always adj...
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Run
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Warning: Take Action
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Take Action guys. Action against this disease. For the lurkers out there, I hope you find a saving grace. Be it AA, NA, religion, anything that prevents you from spiralling down do the deepests depths this disease will take you- to the rock bottom. Alcoholism is a black hole, it sphegettifies (yes tha...
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Daughters New Boyfriend
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I have often spoken of my son here on this board, but not much about his sister. She is a funny, bright, beautiful 27 year old woman. With a new BF. Who is an alcoholic. I just learned the last part last night when I spoke to her on the phone. She had moved out before my addiction and alcoholism took me to my bo...
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The Halloween Costume
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A bald man with a wooden leg gets invited to a Halloween Party. He doesn't know what costume to wear to hide his head and his leg, So he writes to a costume company to explain his problem. A few days later he received a parcel with the following note: Dear Sir, Please find enclosed a pirate's outfit. The spo...
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Pythonpappy
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Don't Text and Fly (2nd try)
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Subject: Halloween SafetyHappy Halloween, have fun and be safe!!!!! I hope this turned out ... -- Edited by Pythonpappy on Wednesday 24th of October 2012 08:06:42 AM
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Today's Gift 10-23
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A.A. Thought for the Day Many people are creeping through life on their hands and knees, merely because they refuse to rely on any power but themselves. Many of them feel that they are being brave and independent, but actually they are only courting disaster. Anxiety and the inferiority complex have...
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Sunday (yesterday)
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After posting a few comments yesterday, I went to the st9re and came down with a severe headache ... after much arguing with the wife, went to hosptal ... had mild 'stroke' ... taking me f9rever to post .. ths is my 2nd try ... 'righjt hand and arm are fightinmg my every command ... left arm okay ... w8ill...
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Off the oxycodone!
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So anyway, I was off and on that hell-ish stuff for the better part of 3 weeks. I have been off 6 days and feel weak but overall good. I talked with St Pete Dean by PM and he suggested 1/2 doses so I went to 1/4 doses, and I seem to have my "happy" back. It is incredable to me that our pre-dispositi...
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Wisdom of the Rooms
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October 22, 2012 Quote of the Week "Worry is a terrible waste of the imagination" Before recovery, I was addicted to so many things - alcohol, drugs, food, sex - anything that I could use to escape I abused as I sought a way out of the impending doom I always felt. When I entered the program...
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Pythonpappy
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Embarrassing Situations
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A very shy guy goes into a bar and sees a beautiful woman sitting at the other end. After an hour of gathering up his courage he finally goes over to her and asks, tentatively, "Um, would you mind if I chatted with you for a while?" To which she responds by yelling, at the top of her lungs, "...
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Good quote about drinking and not being able to stop
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...from Lana dey Rey, who I understand is a pop star. Let's just say that I don't know much about pop music, I don't in fact know her music and I have no idea if she's in the Fellowship (and would of course not break her anonymity if I did)....but I do know *exactly* what she's saying: "I was a big drink...
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One Choice
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One ChoiceOne... One tree can start a forest, One smile can begin a friendship, One hand can lift a soul, One word can frame the goal, One candle can wipe out darkness, One laugh can conquer gloom, One hope can raise our spirits, And...one choice can change your life. Think about that. One choice, just o...
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Pythonpappy
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Daily Reflections ~ True Tolerance & 24hrs a Day
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Finally, we begin to see that all people, including ourselves, are to some extent emotionally ill as well as frequently wrong, and then we approach true tolerance and see what real love for our fellows actually means. TWELVE STEPS AND TWELVE TRADITIONS, p. 92 The thought occurred to me that all peo...
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Today's Gift 10-22
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When we have internalized Step One, our lives reflect it. Admitting we are powerless over alcohol is not very difficult for most of us. Admitting we are powerless over the alcoholic is another matter. After all, we have used shame quite successfully to get our way on occasion, intimidation sometime...
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A Husband
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A husband is someone who, after taking the trash out, gives the impression that he justcleaned the whole house. (This was me as an active drinker!!!)
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Helping one another
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This is a quote that a friend sent me thought it was worth sharing. "Though I know intellectually how vulnerable I am to pride and power, I am the last one to know when I succumb to their seduction. That's why spiritual Lone Rangers are so dangerous - and why we must depend on trusted brothers and si...
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May not be able to control the situation,but can control how I let it affect me!
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Morning and blessings of this day! It has been evident to me for many years now that even my best laid plans do not always come to fruition.For today in the hustle to get my in-laws ready to get to our house of worship,(my mother in laws debilatating Dementia,my father -in laws now total dependance on o...
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Step work board
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We have begun the steps on the step work board. Please stop over and check out step 1. We will be doing a step every 2 weeks posted on Sunday. The step work board can use your support. It is through working and sharing these steps that we can maintain our sobriety.When anyone anywhere, reaches out for...
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Today's Gift 10-21
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Thou art everywhere, but I worship you here; Thou art without form, butI worship you in these forms; Thou needest no praise, yet I offer you these prayers and salutations. --Hindu prayer The history of the Twelve Steps tells us that in the first small A.A. group there was controversy about the word God...
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How much do you bug someone - becomming a sponsor.
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I listened to a speaker the other night who said he was a chronic relapser for years and years. Finally he got a sponsor, but was still relapsing. The sponsor kept calling him and saying "okay, what are we going to do different this time?" He said he finally stayed sober just to keep his spo...
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October 17, 1976
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As of last Wednesday October 17th thanks to the help of God as I understand Him, AA and the big book I have 36 years of continous sobriety. Couldn't be happier, life is more that I ever dreamed it could be those many years back. It works if you work it.
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Dan B 76
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Don't make your wife mad (For Pappy)
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Dont make a woman angry! Youve been warned. JOKE OF THE DAYA man left for work one Friday afternoon. But, being pay-day, instead of going home, he stayed out the entire weekend partying with the boys and spending his entire pay check. When he finally appeared at home, Sunday night, he was confronte...
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no self control
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Ok, this isn't about drinking... but I'm attempting to quit smoking... yesterday I got cash from hubby because I was desperate to get cigs, it was the last of our cash. Our checking account is overdrawn... he told me not to put anything on the credit card, we were about $10 away from hitting our limit. So...
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6 Years ago today
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......at around this time, the last alcoholic drink went down my throat as I drank my way to a police cell. I dunno how exactly it happened, but I am grateful that I ended up busted and desparate enough to make the call to the helpine the next morning. I'll go to bed sober tonight, in my own bed, in my own home...
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My sponsers anniversary
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Hey guys:) my sponser has asked me to give her her 3 year chip at tommorrow nights meeting. I'm totally honored and I love her tons, she's been my strength, sanity, wisdom, and inspiration throughout my short sobriety. She's truly the first person, and often only person still, that I have no fear of bei...
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The Truth in the Morning
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During those first few moments of consciousness as you wake up in bed, listen carefully. Sometimes it is a lie, like being resentful at someone from yesterday. Other times it is a Truth that God is bringing you. If that's the case, observe it. Let it sink in. Carry it with you for the day - it needs to be no...
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Daily Reflections ~ Comfort for Solace & 24hrs a Day
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Obviously, the dilemma of the wanderer from faith is that of profound confusion. He thinks himself lost to the comfort of any conviction at all. He cannot attain in even a small degree the assurance of the believer, the agnostic, or the atheist. He is the bewildered one. TWELVE STEPS AND TWELVE TRADI...
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Two Months and counting!!
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Hello everyone, its been awhile since my last post, figure I would stop by and give ya a heads up on my progress, I'm still fighting the good fight, dont think much about drinking anymore and things are much clear on the path Im heading, been really active and doing family things, besides dreaded work, w...
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Paul M
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when life happens
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i've found it difficult to become accustomed to dealing with life situations since i've become sober, it's been 2 1/2 years and things hit me and i feel like a child sometimes cuz i don't know how to handle it properly, i hate that i am still defensive and turn things around, unlike when i drank i don't run...
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When will I learn
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I really need to take HALT seriously, (Hungry, left it until 9 last night to eat my main meal of the day) (Lonely: feel upset at the loss of my friend of some of the circle that I had when I first came into AA: some are not with us anymore and some have gone out : I miss them) (Tired: doing trade fairs at work that...
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maire rua
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3 Reasons People Can't Cope with Life
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Laughter is an Instant VacationYou know, sometimes life just gets too serious...too busy...and too complicated. We don't mean for it to happen, but we wake up one morning to discover the fun has slipped away. A few years ago a health study determined there are 3 main reasons people can't cope in life:...
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What does it mean to 'Let Go'?
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Lord, help me to understand: To let go does not mean to stop caring; it means I can't do it for someone else. To let go is not to enable, but to allow learning from natural consequences. To let go is to admit powerlessness, which means the outcome is not in my hands. To let go is not to try to change or blame ano...
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Today's Gift 10-20
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It is a matter first of beginning - and then following through. --Richard L. Evans How many times have we started a project or a new path of living only to abandon it after a short time? We may have thought it wasn't what we wanted or there wasn't enough time. Instead of following through, we usually gave u...
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Yesterday, today, tomorrow, and a few years from now.
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To stay sober today, I must not drink today--this day, this hour, this minute, the next minute, the next five minutes, this minute, the next minute...and when the clock reaches midnight, yee haw-I "have" 24 hrs. And not a minute more. So from 12 to 12:01, I don't drink that minute. And so it g...
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This'll be a new experience for me....
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Suddenly, due to changed circumstances at work, I find that at the end of this month, I'll be managing 8 people instead of 2. No problem there, just need a bigger shovel........ One of the new team that I'm inheriting is a personal friend and also a member of the fellowship. I have to be clear that friends...
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The Jitter Joint
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Jack and Jill went up the hill, Jack to sober up at the Jitter Joint.. Jack came down the hill a few weeks later and got drunk in the first bar he saw. I was laughing so hard at my little limerick that I almost fell off my chair. I would repeat it several times to myself and burst out laughing.. The group was wa...
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Hee hee hee
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After years...as a bum...a psychiatric patient getting abused, abandoned, threatened...I let it go and found a job. Theres a whole lot goin on' Chain is on the door, phone calls are starting.
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Closer
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Just got back from a 3-day biz trip
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In a place that's not known for its sobriety. Last time I was there was pre-sobriety. ;) Had biz meetings for most of it and was jet-lagged like nobody's business. But went to a meeting, a small one, and was of course, right at home. Good sobriety -- one guy with 36 years another visitor with 21 years -- and...
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SteveP
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Today's Gift 10-19
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Some people grumble because the roses have thorns instead of being grateful that the thorns have roses. ***** We must learn from the mistakes of others because we won't live long enough to make them all ourselves. ***** Don't look down on another person unless you are leaning over to help them up. ****...
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