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Just got back from a Step meeting. I am attending one a week and really needed this one tonight--Step One. May I never forget (or never choose to ignore).....that I am truly powerless over alcohol and that my life had become unmanageable. I told myself that all that was a bunch of nonsense and that I had power and control over it. I know now why I had that thinking. It is because I wanted to drink again and I was in serious denial. I forgot my past experiences and the painful repercussions. I would love more than anything else to believe that I have had enough and I am "done". I cannot afford to think that way. I now have more days of sobriety than I have had in a good while. May not be very many to some however it is huge to me when I was getting back into drinking like I was before I got into AA. My head is clearer now and I am enjoying sobriety and life and I feel like I have been given yet another chance and I am willing to do what it takes to stay sober....(except sleep with an oldtimer--ha!)



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Thanks for sharing. Probably all of us here have had the same feelings. I had one long time sober guy tell me that every day he thinks about step one and tradition four even if he does nothing else. I recently relapsed after three years sober so back to step one.

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T.

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No one wishes to admit they are powerless over something ... I kept go'n back out and simply knew I could control it this time ... LOL, y'all know what happened when I did ... Good job LTR, glad things are look'n up ... you know we're here for you ...

Welcome to MIP Todd ... glad you joined us ...



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yawnyawnyawnyawnyawnMy sponsor always lets me know how important the first step is and how if not worked thouroughly, I WILL get drunk/high again.

 



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12 and 12 Step onE: no one cares to admit complete defeat

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Thanks Pappy. My living situation is the same.....found out that in 2 weeks he may be going out of state to visit relatives--they are drinkers. Think they are the rare kind, to me, and can control their drinking. Going to visit other relatives while there and I am not sure, however do suspect, that there will be more drinkers. So I have an option to go and be around drinkers.....go to see my mom and do without meetings (working on getting my license back so I can drive however will not have it by that time) for a few days or stay here alone. This happened before when I was new in recovery and I remember staying by myself and coming really close to drinking. I was told by him to call anytime night or day if I needed to talk--however, got no answer in the evening when I tried several times so reached out to a couple in AA and no answer. I watched the clock praying and hoping I could make it to midnight (they don't sell alcohol after that time). Made it to midnight and realized, "Damn! I can go drink at a bar until 2:00 a.m.!" So again, I did more clock watching and got through that time. More calling him and it going into VM and me getting more and more upset and frustrated and wanting to drink. I made it though. I didn't drink.

And a couple of other times in my sobriety I was alone overnight and I came here to this board and relied on God and you guys to get me through. So whatever I decide to do in the next couple of weeks I think I will be alright...however, the timing of this kinda sucks. If I had more sober time it would be better. I need to learn to like being by myself. I allowed myself to get too dependent on another person and I do not like being alone. All I can do is remember that First Step and cling on to it and this program for dear life.



-- Edited by leavetherest on Friday 10th of June 2016 09:25:13 AM

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You are never alone LTR ... ... ... the 'Big Guy' is sit'n next to you this very moment in fact ... ... ... and if you get the chance, go get a good book, unrelated to recovery, a humorous book or a romance novel ... get caught up in some imaginary place for a while and let your mind take a break ... a mental vacation as it were ... this will relieve stress and pass the time quickly and give you less of a chance to flirt with the idea of have'n a drink ...


(((((Hug)))))



-- Edited by Pythonpappy on Friday 10th of June 2016 10:27:10 AM

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I need the Big Guy if I try and read a romance novel, Pappy! Ha! If I end up staying here, I will probably get in two walks a day instead of one and surely more than one meditation time. Also, I have decided to come on here and whine to you guys....now, that's a novel approach (hee, hee). Or maybe I can look up funny videos like this one:

www.youtube.com/watch

Now, Pappy...this is hilarious! You use your own judgement if you need me to delete it, however, be sure to watch it first so you can laugh.
(Laughter is great for us alcoholics and I wanted to share).

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LMAO ... Quite clever huh??? ...

I got to be careful ... if I watch a couple of these, then I'll be glued to this screen for a while to come, LOL ... ALTHOUGH, I think it's a good way to spend some time ...

Oh, and thanks for the laugh ... and I think it was in good taste, for what it's worth ... good clean fun I'd say ...



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I am so glad you enjoyed that, Pappy. I am going to look up one or two funny videos a day. I was feeling a little down last night and I forgot what I was down about after I watched that. I played it over and over and laughed as hard the third time as the first! And yes, it was clever...simple--yet clever! The looks on the faces of those people when they realized what was going on ....tooo funny!!!!

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