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Sober Quote for Today, Thursday July 16, 2015
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"I came for my drinking and stayed for my thinking."

 

I had "perfected" my drinking by the last time I came into the AA meetings to get help. I had reached the point I could out drink some of the college bar hoppers. I could out drink my bf. I had not had enough to drink until I passed out. Up until that time, I had to have more. The desire for it was too overwhelming and I didn't understand, nor did I really want to. I was convinced, the alcohol had won and I was the complete drunk loser. Damn! I was going to end up dead from drinking, just like my dad, and his dad as well as other relatives. The alcohol was devouring us all and I was no better, and maybe alot worse, because I knew "better". I knew what this disease did to family members. I let the alcohol beat me too and make me think I was a worthless piece of crap who was just taking up space. I had no ability to pull myself out of the hell I was in. I had no one who truly loved me and understood me. I had ruined relationships, my excellent credit rating was shot, I had a criminal record, no car, not even a license to drive one. I wanted to die.

 

So somehow someway I did see some little sign of life left in me worth saving. I started AA. I gave it another chance. I drug my sorry butt in there and this time opened my ears wide and listened. What did I have to do to stay sober? How do I manage to keep myself alive when I had such a strong desire to drink? How were these other fools in here doing something which I found "impossible" to do?

Get a sponsor! I did that (after a few months--not recommended to wait that long--I took a chance by doing so)

Get a Home Group! (Got that one covered too. Again, took a little while before I felt comfortable with one)

Do service work! Did that --coffee making, washing mugs, setting up chairs, and other things.

Get a Higher Power--got my faith in God back--not right away--just after praying the prayers in the meetings as well as starting to pray on my own.

Work the Steps with a Sponsor! Did that. Didn't want to, hated that 4th Step, (my Sponsor told me that most people relapse at the time they are supposed to work this step.), did it anyway.

Continue to work the Steps--(for ex., taking daily inventory ---I am not great about this--however, am learning that when I do it and am accountable for my own mistakes and shortcomings I get through the days easier).

 

So I was not overjoyed to learn that this is a lifetime ongoing program and I have to stay for my thinking. It is a decision that I realize will keep me alive a lot longer. I still have that "alcoholic thinking" and in order for me to live with myself and not pick up a drink, I have to do whatever it takes. And by doing all this, I gave myself another chance to live a life that I am meant to live instead of dying a drunk.

 

Have a Sober and Safe day.



-- Edited by hopefulone on Thursday 16th of July 2015 09:20:24 AM

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Wow, ... this is the whole 'ball of wax' wrapped up in a few short paragraphs ... GREAT stuff ... thanks hopefulone ...



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