I am on my most boring vacation ever. In West Virginia at a park in a cabin with my whole family 10 adults, a baby and a dog. The setting is beautiful. But there's not much to do here. Normally I would be drin
I'm sober 70 days, and I struggle a great deal with depression. This vacation hasn't really helped with the depression. I'm just not motivated to do anything but sit inside. The catch 22 is that sitting inside makes me feel depressed.
Wow I pulled the trigger too early. I was gonna say that I would normally be drinking, which felt like plans even though it wasn't really. I wish I had my car so I could leave early and just go home. But my brother gave me a ride here. I know this all sounds incredibly ungrateful, because at least I HAVE a vacation and the opportunity to go somewhere.
It's all how you look at it Namaste....70 days is a wonderful gift.....Be proud of that. I didn't give myself time to be bored at 70 days.....I worked on those steps....Why? To put it as simple as I can....I wanted those promises. I don't know what step you are working on...Maybe you can find a peacful place and see what happens. You might even enjoy it.
Wow Nam, ... sounds like you're in a beautiful area ... I'd like to trade places with you for a while ... I love to be out in nature, makes me feel a closer connection with God ... it does a lot for my 'gratitude' list ... before getting sober, I hated anything that took me away from the comfort of my 'passed out' state of mind and body ... ... ...
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Try going for walks, enjoy nature, commune with your HP. In recovery we need to try and re-establish hobbies and develop new interests. Might feel a bit uncomfortable at first, but push yourself a little.
I needed recovery and meetings daily for about a year. I would be antsy and kind of messed up when away during that time. 70 days is great but, I would have felt the same way if I had to be kooked up with my family and no meetings at that point.
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It seems you have internet access. Try xa speakers.org. Look up Joe & Charlie under AA speakers. Or check out any of the tons of others available. A speaker meeting when you can't get to a meeting. Have phone numbers of other women in recovery? Call them & see how they're doing. Go for a hike in the woods, a swim in the lake, gaze at the stars. Play with the baby & the other kids. Journal. The more you just sit there and say I'm bored & boring because they're drinking and I'm not, the more you place yourself in a very precarious position .
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I asked God for all things that I may enjoy life. He gave me life so that I may enjoy all things.
Well, good news... I'm on my way home, still sober. :) That sure was a trying time. 7 days and 6 days in a cottage with the fam. I came down with a cold on Tuesday, my dog is sick, and I've been up since 4:30 am. But I'm feeling much better emotionally.
I ended up buying a book of mandalas, which is basically a complicated coloring book used for meditation. The idea being that as you're coloring you're staying in the present moment, mostly because you have to concentrate since it's so complicated. It was very helpful. I also made an appointment at the spa and got an amazing facial. And my nails done. :)
As far as calling people... I was in contact with a handful of program people throughout the week. I met a woman in AA that has been a great support and friend. It's my first real friendship in AA and I'm grateful for it.
